Suddenly..
It’s a busy day then suddenly I stop… I miss her so much!
4th Month
Today is just like any other day. Full of pain but we still manage to smile and get through it. I don’t know how I survived 4 months without my daughter. Everyday is like a brandnew day. I don’t focus on the past anymore. I don’t focus much on the pain. If I have to […]
Dream
Last night I have this wonderful dream about Ayumi. We are at the hospital and I saw her dead body and I carry it. Then we are at the restaurant. She’s with us. She is back to her jolly self. She told me that she didn’t die. She is always with us. Then we […]
May 1, 2013
I miss you so much! I want to hug and kiss you again.
Feelings
Sometimes, I wonder how come I woke up feeling so refresh and it seems that everything is okay. So last night, I finally knew. The moment I close my eyes I saw a child. I don’t know the gender yet but looks like me when I was young. In my dreams, it started like a […]
I miss you everyday
Dear Ayumi, I miss you so much! I miss you everyday! Love, Mommy
April 24
Okay, I am still here and if I don’t know what to say I just make the date as the title of my post. Today, is quite a busy day in the office. I am now posting new tour packages and answering queries. I have assistant but I still love to deal with my client […]
Another Blah Moments
Two days ago was another blah moments! I can’t stop crying. I was so down and it seems I am drowning by the emotions inside. I wanted to scream and be gone in this painful world. It was very horrible. I can’t sleep! I want to go somewhere else. I want to be alone! I […]
Business Update
Yesterday was very hot and at the same time I had a problem in my spa. My supervisor resigned so I needed to be at my staff and talk to a new supervisor. We had a meeting and listen to my staffs issues. This is quite hard dealing with people but I’m glad I deal […]