I don’t care anymore what might be the reason because I don’t have enough strength of living with pain anymore. The pain is so overwhelming that sometimes I don’t know if I am functioning the way I should be or because I am just program to do it. I feel like a robot that […]
Yesterday, I was feeling so down. I miss my little Ayumi so much. I am just glad that I can easily express my thoughts and feelings to hubby. He is my strength. In this trying moments, I don’t really know how to deal with my feelings anymore. It seems that the pain keeps on my […]
Can you see the change in me? It may not be so obvious to you. I participate in family activities. I attend family reunions. I help plan holiday meals. You tell me you’re glad to see that I don’t cry any more. But I do cry. When everyone has gone — when it is safe […]
Today is Ayumi’s 100th day in Heaven. We visited her place and pray the Holy Rosary. Me and hubby watched her videos and as usual it made us laugh. She is still our joy. We miss her so much and we are longing to hear her laughter again. We wanted to see her happy ones […]
Dear Pillow, You are already on your 3rd month in Heaven. There never comes a day that I never think of you. You are always in my thoughts and in my prayers. I miss you so much! I am deeply in pain knowing that I can’t have you again. There are days that I badly […]
Dear Ayumi, Sorry if sometimes I don’t feel like moving. Sorry if I disappoint you. I know that I promised you that I will live my life to the fullest but there are days that I misses you so much that I just want to wait for us to be together. I don’t know, but […]
Easter Sunday! I know that I should be celebrating today but I don’t feel like doing it. I don’t know how to start my day. We have plans already but I don’t feel like moving. I prepared the Tiramisu last night and I hope that it’s perfect and I hope that kids will love it. […]
Holy week, this is the best time to reflect. This is the time to renew faith and a time to evaluate our soul if we are really living the way God’s plan us to be. Of course, there are moments that we don’t know what are our purpose here. Sometimes, we asked God for our […]