Anger
Today is the day that I don’t want to move. I just want to stay in bed and wishes not to wake up anymore. The pain is killing me and it leads me to anger. I hate why I am still here and my daughter is not with me. I feel so empty. I miss […]
After a While
This is such a nice poem and I learn a lot from it and realize that everything written is what I am experiencing right now.
Second Month
Dear Ayumi, Today is the 2nd month without you. Everyday I woke up, you are the first person in my mind. I miss you so much. I miss those days that you are with us. I miss everything about you. Everytime I close my eyes to sleep, I always wanted to see you in my […]
Traumas
I had traumas since Ayumi was gone. I always wanted to write about it so that I can release it here. This is the only way I can express my feelings about her death. 1. Everytime I heard Ambulance sounds, I panicked and remember the feeling when we were inside the ambulance with Ayumi. I […]
Random Thoughts
Yesterday was the Grand Opening of my Spa. It was a great event. Friends was there and we had so much fun. After the spa blessing we decided to have our massage and I feel so relax. The whole time I was having fun, I suddenly got quiet because I can’t help but think of […]
Letter From Heaven
When I passed from here to there, I knew your heart would break. It’s here not there where I reside; in mountains, fields and lakes. In the break of each new dawn and when the sun goes down, In birds and trees and skies of blue, you’ll know I’m still around A broken heart I […]
New Me
WHAT IS NORMAL NOW? NORMAL is trying to decide what to take to the cemetery for Christmas, birthdays, Valentine’s day and Easter. NORMAL is feeling like you know how to act and are more comfortable with a funeral than a wedding or a birthday party. Yet, feeling a stab of pain in your heart […]
Moving On
When I lost Ayumi, I really don’t know how to start my life all over again. I don’t know how to deal with pain. I think expressing everything that I feel through this blog is a big help to cope the pain. Some of my friends thought that I already move on. Well, moving on […]
Happy Valentines
This is somewhat a late post. Before we went to South Korea, we visit Ayumi first to greet her Valentines. She loves flowers and everytime his dad gives me flower she wanted to hold the flowers too. I’m sure she loves it so much and she is happy.