I am not feeling good since yesterday. I have some body pains and colds, maybe this is because of the weather. So I just stay and work at home. I always wanted something hot because of my itchy throat.
We also got a chance to watch movie at home with my cousins. It is always a good time when we watched movie together. I also spent time with the kids. I just love being around with them. My kids are my top priority and you know how much it hurts me when I lost Pillow. There are days that I really wish so hard that she is still with us. Sometimes, I wonder where she is right now. I wonder what she is doing and I just hope that I have this power to know what she is doing now.
I don’t blog about my feelings so much this past few months because I don’t want to dwell to much about it anymore but it doesn’t mean that I forget about it. Kasi alam ko na kahit kailan hindi naman makalimutan yon. It was the worst feeling ever and sometimes I just can’t believe that it happened to me. I can’t believe that I lost a daughter…
When I don’t feel good, I have this endless thoughts that keeps on coming and I really can’t control it. Sometimes I even wonder why I am still here while my daughter is not here. But, I am just glad that I find a reason to stay. Everytime I look at Gareth and Xavier, I suddenly realized that having them is enough reasons for me to stay.
So if you are experiencing the worst today.. just hang on because I always believe that God has better plans for you.
