My Childhood

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I don’t have a happy childhood.

Sobrang strict ng father ko. I was the eldest and everytime my mali akong magawa, palo agad ang katapat. Minsan sa sobrang sakit ng palo nila sa akin, yes sila, kasi kapag minsan sumasali pa mother ko, instead na kakampihan nya ako or pipigilan nya Papa ko, mas naging matindi pa.

Lumaki akong palaging may takot. Lumaki ako na dapat maayos lahat ang ginagawa ko kasi kung hindi siguradong papaluin ako.

Don’t get me wrong… pero sabi nila gustong gusto ng magulang ko magkaanak. For 6 years wala daw silang anak, gusto na nga nilang mag ampon non pero palaging minamalas sila kapag may gusto na silang aampunin. Kinukuha daw nong magulang nong bata so ang ending nalulungkot lang sila. Kaya nong nalaman na buntis na si Mama, sobrang excited lahat. Ako din ang eldest na apo sa Mother’s side kaya tuwang tuwa ang Lola ko.

I was also sickly.

When I was born, just a week I was born, kapag umiiyak daw ako non may dugo. They don’t even know kung ano yon. Pinacheck up daw nila ako pero hindi daw maintindihan ng doctor. Sa lampin ko daw may dugo daw talaga kapag iiyak na ako. Natatakot daw sila na umiyak ako kaso sobrang iyakin ko daw non. Eventually nawala din daw yon at hanggang ngayon it remained a mystery.

When I reached around elementary, I was so sickly. I had asthma attacked almost every week. Though I was always absents in class, I still remained as honor student. I am always belong to the top of the class. My grades were good and I don’t know how I made it since I was always absent. But when I was at home, I always read books and do my homework and review my lessons.

When my father helped me with my assignments, I ended up crying. May nakahandang pamalo lalo na kung hindi ko agad maintindihan ang tinuturo nya.

Though my father was strict and though it seems not a happy childhood because of some difficulties we had, I think I am still lucky. My Lola (grandmother) loved me so much. She is everything to  me. I am so lucky to have her. She showed me love and taught me so many things. I am her eldest grand daughter. I love everything about her. Though we are not rich, she never let me feel that we are poor. I never experienced hunger with her. Actually,  my family never let me experienced hunger when I grow up, that’s why I was not aware that we are poor. We always have food in our kitchen. I always see my Lola preparing food.

I also grew up in a farm like place. We had livestock, fruits and vegetables all around us. I grew up eating vegetable and fruits and that is the reason that until now, I see to it to have fruits and vegetables in our meal. I am just glad that my Lola introduced me to those things.

My childhood was not so bad at all but it was not really a happy childhood. Still… I am thankful for my childhood.