Category: Personal

Mothers Day 2017

Though I am a grieving Mom, I still need to celebrate Mother’s Day for the sake of Irish, Gareth and Xavier who value me as a Mommy. I need to show to them that no matter how broken I am inside, I can take it aside and still celebrate this moment with them. I realized that I should do this though it’s hard for me, but because I wanted to create more happy memories with them. I want them to remember this moment that I cherished them, that I value them so much.

So we went to Megamall to attend mass and celebrate.

We went to a Japanese Resto.

 

Here are our orders:

When Xavier says, Mommy lalab… meaning he wants hugs and kisses.

This is our decent picture that day. 🙂

Everyday I thank God for choosing me as a mother of my children. I feel so lucky to have them. They really brings so much good in my life. Through them, I am inspired to do good and to continue to work hard in order to provide them the best future. I am also dedicated to spend more time with them and to get involve in their everyday activity in order for me to know them more. I wanted to create more wonderful memories with them. I want them to feel happy and secure with me.

Despite my heartaches as a mom, I know that everything has a reason and somehow I learn to appreciate whatever I have now. I am grateful for all the blessings.

Though deep down in my heart… I still wish that Ayumi is still with us….

Just Blah

 

I think I deserved this dessert. I love carrot cake and everytime I don’t feel good about anything around me, I indulged myself with that sweet little thing.

So many things are going on right now.. for my personal life and for the people around me.

Since I need someone to talk, I asked a friend to come over and we talked until morning and somehow it made me feel good.

I am not feeling good too, it seems that I will be having a flu, so I am taking it slow. Though I have some work to finish, I am just taking my time.

In order for me to divert my attention, I watch Netflix. In moments like this, Netflix is really a big help. 🙂

I think I will spend my whole weekend taking rest and just watch Netflix and spend time with the kids.

By the way, We went to a mall this afternoon and I shop a bit and it made me feel good. hahahah as always, shopping is the best stress reliever. So I just swipe my card and viola! ahhahah

I also went to an art gallery and realized that my painting was sooooo bad…  and I think I need to redo it asap before I will bring it to the office.  harharhar… nakakainis.. ang pangit ng gawa ko…

I am also done reading a book and so I have to pick from my 9 unread books and I hope to finish it in 2 weeks. I need to finish reading those books because I am eyeing for new books. Oh well, I hope I will not be going to any bookstore unless I’m done with the 9 books. But in reality… I am in the bookstore almost everyday! I am just controlling myself not to get a new one. Believe me… It’s the hardest thing to do…

This coming weeks will be exciting because I will be doing some major decisions for the business and I hope that the universe will unite to achieve my goals then it will be so AWESOME!

But no matter what… I will be true to my passion and I know that God will grant my heart wishes.

So though I am feeling blah as of the moment.. but I never lose hope and I know that what we are dealing right now, like confusions, shocks and doubts, I believe that THIS TOO SHALL PASS!

so hurray!!

Shock

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

We were at Batangas for our quick getaway.

When we arrived there we were all expecting to have fun.

We arrived around 4pm. Then we settled in.

My siblings were doing their thing. They had a little drink and some pictures. I just love seeing them having fun.

Since we were so tired we slept earlier than usual. Around 11pm they were all sleeping while me and hubby slept around 4a.m. since we are still monitoring our business.

Then.. When I woke up around 10 a.m

I found out that my sister bf died..

She just got a call in that morning…

I still want to sleep but I can’t.  My sister was crying hysterically. We can’t control her.

I was so shocked! We were all shocked!

Until now, I still can’t believe that it happened. It seems everything happened so fast. I really don’t know what to do.

My sister is feeling so low and I really don’t know how to console her.

I am also deeply hurt. I don’t want to see her in pain.

Their love story is quite complicated but they love each other so much.

I don’t know how my sister can handle this one. She also lost a bf last 2003 and this one is the second time. I can’t imagine how hurt she is right now.

I wish to take away her pain.. but this is the moment that I really feel so helpless.

I pray so hard to God to help my sister. I hope that He will guide my sister and bless her a happy years ahead.

She’s been through a lot. Please God, ease her pain and please bless the soul of our friend. May he rest in peace.

 

Memories…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Some memories are really sad. When facebook shows some memories for over years ago, the moment I started checking on it, it somehow make me sad.

So many happy memories of Pillow. I just can’t even share it to my timeline because it made me sad and then I will suddenly lost my concentration.

There were so many things that happened in my life that I just keep inside of me. Somehow those memories makes me so sad but I just can’t show it.

I think I should create more happy memories with my love ones so someday I will just look at it and maybe it will make me feel good. That somehow lessen the sadness…

so… let’s make wonderful moments…

Teens

Teens now a days is really different during my time. We have to be vigilant at the same time be very careful in dealing with them because most of the time we were misunderstood or the other way around.

Irish will be turning 17 years old next month and I am so thankful for having her. She is responsible enough to deal things around her. She is really doing her best to study and to be a perfect daughter. Yes, she is my daughter from the same mother. ahhahaha

We love reading books, fashion and just chilling in a coffee shop. She is indeed my daughter.

I am really so thankful to have her, she really grown up as a fine lady and I am so proud that somehow I raised her well.

 

Today is her moving up. For 4 years, she never given me headache. She really knows her responsibility and with that I am so proud.

 

She is officially ready for Senior High and I really wish her the best. We are always here to love and support her all the way.

Keep the Faith

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As I am into business, there were challenges but I am getting used to it. This is what my heart wants to do and so I have to face each challenges with a hopeful heart.

I believe that whatever challenges I am facing now is just a small part of the big victory in the future. So I just hang on…

Family Time

It was a crazy week and spending time with the kids is the best idea for me to relax.

We went to church and to UP Town Mall at BGC.

 

Ang laking pizza, hindi namin naubos.

Then they saw this train but the attendant was not there so they end up just sitting there and pretend that it was moving.

Gareth saw this stage and he got so excited, he goes up and dance. Siguro kung hindi special child si Gareth baka gusto nyang magperform. He likes singing and he has a nice voice. I hope someday maging maayos din lahat para sa kanya. I really wish na dumating ang time na kahit papano maexpress nya ang nararamdaman nya. Pero kung hindi man dumating ang time na yon, ok lang talaga. Walang mababago, dahil kahit ano pa man sya, mahal na mahal ko sya. He is my lucky charm. 🙂

When I Started Blogging

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Okay.. I will make a short story when I started my love of blogging.

I started blogging since Friendster days. I found out blogging when Friendster started showing a tab “Blog”. I wonder what was it then I made a research about it. So I found out that its like having a journal and because I love keeping a journal, I found it cool to start a blog.

I still remember my first blog was all about the pain I had when my father died. Actually, I forgot about my previous blogs, because my first blogs was from Friendster, Blogspot then WordPress. Having a blog is a big help for me to express my thoughts and feelings. I don’t know before if I have readers but I don’t really care because at that time I was only focus on expressing myself.

I never stop blogging since then, until I got my own domain. I never thought that I  have readers then one day I got some emails from my readers and then I realized that hey…. I have readers. Some of them became my FB friends and they got to know me more.

As I checked, I am blogging for 14 years already and I am not earning from it but I am loving it. I never thought of monetizing my blog because I want to keep it real. ahhaah I don’t want to put more ads. I want this blog to be more personal. I also have some websites for our businesses but I keep this one really personal. This is my journal that I will be reading when I grow old just to remember how wonderful and colorful my life is.

So to all my readers… thanks for stopping by!

🙂

 

 

Back to Reality

I’m back from my Maldives Vacation and it’s been a week already but I am still hibernating. I miss every moment I have in that place. I miss everything about in that place.

Deja Vu

When I first landed my feet on that place, I feel something weird. It seems that the I’ve been in that place so many times. I am so familiar with the place. My soul knew the place so much. It seems that I belong to that place. My first night there was somewhat weird. I feel so lonely. On the next days that we stayed in the Island, it seems that my questions were answered. Everything makes sense eventually…

Now that I am back… I have so many things that needs my attention. We have new projects coming on and I need to deal every issues in our business and then my mind is fleeting…

I want to go somewhere else but I need to focus right now. I need to set aside my travels and just focus on the business. This is really not the best time to be away from my business.. so I am taking it slow. I need to focus this time..

 

So there you go…  🙁

I Wish…

Faith and Fear:

Starting a business is not easy. The most challenging part of starting a business is the capital. Having a capital is really crucial in starting a business and I just hope I have enough. It is always a challenge for me particularly this time that my business is growing and I have more ideas in mind but I need to hold on for a while because of the lack of capital. This is the moment that I wish I am rich enough to pursue my dreams but hey.. I am not. It is a struggle but I am holding on. I know that in time I will get through it. I know that I just have to pause for a moment and just work on what I have.

Lately, I am overwhelmed of all the things that are happening in my life particularly in my business. I really don’t have someone that I can talk to that is the same with my status. I don’t have friends who are really into this business so I don’t have any to open up. I just read books and talk to my husband about my plans. I have no one to confide to in terms of business. Somehow it’s frustrating… but I realized that being the head of the company, I should deal with it. Sometimes I based my decisions logically but still I need to use my heart and it’s hard sometimes but believe me, if you are in my situation, you will definitely used your heart more but you need to hide it from everyone.

I need to show that I am in control of everything, which is really the case but it’s not really always easy. It might look cool because I need guidance too, and with that I am relying on my faith. Hoping that I made a great decision everytime I made one.

Despite of what is going on right now, I am still so thankful for everything. Because I know that I will make it through. I know that is just part of the journey and part of my ultimate goal to help others and to build a company that will definitely help those who are in need.

There are days that I wanted to give up but when I look at my people’s eyes and situation, I know that I don’t have any reason to give up. I don’t have any reason to feel so down. I need to be strong and let my company grow because they are depending on me. I don’t want to disappoint them. I want to let them feel that I am here for them and I will do, with all my might to make things work.

So there you go.. I finally started sharing about me as a businesswoman. I think I should be doing this often because somehow I need to unload it from my system and I think that is also one of the reason why I have blog, because I need to express myself freely here. So please don’t judge. I also wanted to put some of my thoughts and feelings here so that someday I can easily reread this and maybe I will just laugh about this, because I know that I will overcome this hardships soon. Sooner than I think. Maybe, I will let my son’s or grandchild read my blog in the future and this explains how I struggle with my life but still I never give up.

So there…

God Bless everyone!