Yes, we just celebrated our 10th year wedding anniversary. Here’s my message to my husband on our FB Wall: Dear, we both know it has been a rough ride. However, I don’t care how bumpy the road is as long as I’m not taking this ride all by myself. Yes, it was…
Diabetic Pregnant
I have type 2 diabetes and the truth is I don’t know where I got it. I am not really into sweets but I got my gestational diabetes when I got pregnant with my eldest. Since then, my blood sugar is hard to control. Now that I am pregnant again, I am very careful and…
Birthday Gift
I got my new birthday gift from Hubby. It was quite late but it’s okay because we made sure first that the we transfer to our new place. I wanted this Celine Bag since last year but I can’t afford it yet so I decided to wait. I am very happy when…
Rainbow Baby
When I lost Ayumi, I know that I can have a new baby, not as a replacement for her because the truth is, no one can replace her. I wanted a new baby because we are longing to have a baby. Before Ayumi died, we are planning to have a new baby and I…
Happy Birthday Ayumi!
If only you are here with us today, we will be having a grand celebration, just like what we used to do. Maybe for the past 3 months I am busy preparing for your birthday. Maybe I already order your birthday gown months before your birthday. But not… I never did all those things because…
Faith Tested
When I talk to the Mother Superior of the Sisters of Mary, she told me that what happened was a test of Faith. She talked to me about it when I was so down and whatever she is telling me that time is hard to process. Now that it will turn 7 months without my…
Rain Rain Go Away
It’s been raining for a week already… I just wanted to stay at home but I really can’t. I have so many things to do. So here I am, just staying in the office and hoping to finish my work. Today is just a great day!
Dengue
I hate the fact that I lost my daughter due to Dengue. I hate mosquitos so much! If only I can gather them in one place and kill all of them I will definitely do it. I heard so many horrible stories from parents who lost a child because of Dengue. It’s so devastating that…
Fear
Due to what I experienced, due to that trauma that keeps on playing on my mind, Fear is my constant company. I hate the feeling but believe me there are days that I can beat Fears. There are days that I just set it aside because I am so tired of dealing with it anymore!…
I miss my little Ayumi so much. The last scene keeps on playing on my mind right now. It’s quite different because I don’t panic anymore everytime I remember that painful moment. I am just wondering the exact time she last breath. I don’t know but it just made me sad. I wanted to…