Gareth now a days is so crazy in watching any videos from iPad and iPhone. He even browsed the videos of Ayumi. I thought he will just skip it as what he always does. But today is different. He watches every videos of Ayumi. When he is watching the video, I can see the sadness in his eyes. I really don’t know if he knows what really happened.
It is just sad that he can’t let us know what he is thinking. He can’t express his thoughts but I hope someday he can talk about it. I hope I can help him. We give him privacy everytime he is checking his sister’s videos and pictures. I know he needed it most. We just let him do it but as a mom, it hurts me so bad. I wish I can take the sadness away from him. I know that he is grieving and that is his own way.
I know that he is wondering about his sister. I even heard him say the name of Ayumi. It’s a good sign because he still remember Ayumi. I am happy that in just a short time that Ayumi is with us, she really made it sure to make Gareth happy. She really loves his kuya. I know that until now he is still watching over his kuya and maybe she truly understand that his kuya is a special child that needed her most.