My Loves
Here’s the pic collage of my loves. Gareth misses you sooo much Ayumi. I hope you have a good time always and please watch your kuya always. We love you so much baby!
Feeling of a Brother
I love posting of my kids pictures whenever they are together but sadly I can’t post it anymore. Gareth loves to browse Ayumi’s pictures on my iPad. I know in my heart that he misses her sister so much. Gareth is a special child and eventhough he is like that I know that he is […]
Staying at Home
I decided to stay at home today because the nanny needs to leave early so I am here taking care of my eldest son. He keeps on singing while watching TV. My nephew is also here so the house is noisy and I love it. I love listening to them while they are playing and […]
Anger
Today is the day that I don’t want to move. I just want to stay in bed and wishes not to wake up anymore. The pain is killing me and it leads me to anger. I hate why I am still here and my daughter is not with me. I feel so empty. I miss […]
After a While
This is such a nice poem and I learn a lot from it and realize that everything written is what I am experiencing right now.
Monday
It’s a busy Monday. I went to my Spa earlier because I need to talk to the supplier then headed here at my travel agency office. It was fun being busy because that is the only way I got a chance to stay away from pain. When I came here at the office, I am […]
Second Month
Dear Ayumi, Today is the 2nd month without you. Everyday I woke up, you are the first person in my mind. I miss you so much. I miss those days that you are with us. I miss everything about you. Everytime I close my eyes to sleep, I always wanted to see you in my […]
Regrets
Looking back, I am checking if I feel any regrets after I loss my daughter. Everyday, I am evaluating myself if I have regrets but the answer is always NO. Since the day she was born, I gave everything. I love her until now. I show my love to her everyday. She is not just […]