I went to Angel shop yesterday because I always wanted to have angel. I am very particular on what I want. I wanted an angel that looks like her then I saw this cute angel, that reminds me on how my little Ayumi sleeps. 🙂
My Loves
Here’s the pic collage of my loves. Gareth misses you sooo much Ayumi. I hope you have a good time always and please watch your kuya always. We love you so much baby!
Do not Stand at My Grave and Weep
Anger
Today is the day that I don’t want to move. I just want to stay in bed and wishes not to wake up anymore. The pain is killing me and it leads me to anger. I hate why I am still here and my daughter is not with me. I feel so empty. I miss…
Monday
It’s a busy Monday. I went to my Spa earlier because I need to talk to the supplier then headed here at my travel agency office. It was fun being busy because that is the only way I got a chance to stay away from pain. When I came here at the office, I am…
Second Month
Dear Ayumi, Today is the 2nd month without you. Everyday I woke up, you are the first person in my mind. I miss you so much. I miss those days that you are with us. I miss everything about you. Everytime I close my eyes to sleep, I always wanted to see you in my…
Regrets
Looking back, I am checking if I feel any regrets after I loss my daughter. Everyday, I am evaluating myself if I have regrets but the answer is always NO. Since the day she was born, I gave everything. I love her until now. I show my love to her everyday. She is not just…
The Smile
That is the smile I misses so much. This picture was taken last December, few days before she passed away. I was so happy that time when I capture her smile because everytime she smiles like that I don’t have a camera with me. When finally, I got that shot I was so happy. I…
Traumas
I had traumas since Ayumi was gone. I always wanted to write about it so that I can release it here. This is the only way I can express my feelings about her death. 1. Everytime I heard Ambulance sounds, I panicked and remember the feeling when we were inside the ambulance with Ayumi. I…
Random Thoughts
Yesterday was the Grand Opening of my Spa. It was a great event. Friends was there and we had so much fun. After the spa blessing we decided to have our massage and I feel so relax. The whole time I was having fun, I suddenly got quiet because I can’t help but think of…