August 3 It’s Ayumi’s 4th birthday but I really don’t know what to do. The night before her birthday I was really crying. I miss her so much. We went to her place and offer her a black forest cake (her favorite) and juice. We also bought balloons. It is a sad birthday because the…
Missing Her so Much!
It’s been 1 year and 6 months since Ayumi left us. Yesterday, we visited her spot and it seems that I lost her just yesterday. Everything still seems so fresh. I still wish to have her with us. Everyday I wish to hug and kiss her. I miss her sooo much! Maraming mga bagay ang…
Feeling Blah…
I hate it when I woke up and I feel so empty. I don’t know how to start my day. I don’t feel like doing something. You know that feeling that you miss someone but you just can’t express it freely because you know it will not change a thing. You know that you want…
Month of May…
May is almost over and we will be welcoming June. Summer in Philippines is finally over but we are still busy for the Summer in U.S.(online work). But here in the Philippines, it is summer the whole year and because of that I am not yet done for my summer getaway for the coming months.…
So True
This is so true. When I finally realized that I can’t have my daughter again, everything was hurt and I really can’t believe that it happened to me. That was during the first few months… But now, everything sink in already. Though I have a new baby already and busy caring for Xavier, there are…
Five People You Meet in Heaven
While on a vacation, I got a chance to read this book. I just got it last weekend and this book is really nice. I got interested in this book because sometimes I also wonder, just like everyone else about our life after our lifetime here on Earth. Upon reading the book, I wonder if…
Heaven is For Real Movie
Last week, hubby and I decided to watched the movie Heaven is For Real with Xavier. When we went inside the cinema, Xavier was crying and hubby had no other choice but to go out first. Actually, I read the book before Ayumi died but watching the movie after my daughter died is a different…
Never Forgotten
I am busy most of the time but never comes a day that I never miss my daughter. I will forever miss her… forever…
3rd Floor
I have my appointment with my OB yesterday but before she let me have my usual check up she asked me to drop by at 3rd floor first to discuss with me about anesthesia. So, when I went to the hospital at around 1pm we went to 3rd floor right away. I stayed less than…
Just Missing Her…
Last night while talking to hubby: Me: Did you miss her? Hubby: Of course.. everyday. Me: Really? Hubby: Yes Me: How not to miss her? Hubby: That is impossible… Yes.. that is really impossible because she is our child. A parent will miss her child every time we breath.