If you are following my blog, you will definitely know who I am referring to. I ordered this personalize necklace at Willow Jewelry and I am so happy with the outcome. Every detailed is clean and I can say that it is really done with hardworking hands. I can wear this everyday as I reminder […]
August 3, 2015 It was Ayumi’s 5th birthday and I really don’t know how to celebrate it. So we just decided to visit Tagaytay with the whole family. I don’t want to do anything… I just want to see the view and just feel the moment… Actually, I don’t even know what I felt […]
August 3, 2015 Five years ago, I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl, Ayumi. Then… I don’t know anymore what to write here… For quite sometime I am contemplating for her upcoming birthday. I was planning if I have to do the same as last year, like having balloons and cakes and we […]
Since I lost my daughter, I don’t feel like celebrating Mother’s day anymore. It’s been 2 years that I don’t really like it. I got emotional everytime I think of this event. Some may thought that I feel okay now.. but the truth is, I am still not okay. I just learn how to cope […]
Sometimes I don’t want to watch the news anymore because it just made me sad. I checked my FB news feed and sometimes I don’t like what’s in there… I just wish that we are living in a happy world… but we are not… Because in a reality… maraming sakit.. In the past few days, […]
There are days that I am still not okay. I still have that Flashbacks moments. When that moment came, I don’t want to move. Then I have this anxiety attacks and depressions. I still have it from time to time and I learn to live my life dealing with it. It’s hard.. but I realized […]
Yes, it still hurts so much. Last night, I decided to start creating the Photo Book of Ayumi. So, I need to view her pictures. There are so much pictures. I was compiling it and before I knew it, I created 4 folders already with her pictures alone. From her baby pictures until the day […]
I am so afraid of touching my things from the past coz’ I might saw something that will affect my mood. That will stop me from doing what I am doing and just remember the past. Today, I happened to hold my old planner. My 2010 planner when Ayumi was born. It made me remember […]
Jan. 3, 2015 Days before the anniversary, I was not feeling good. I don’t like going out. I just stayed the whole time in the bedroom. I don’t feel like facing people. Going out was a struggle. I don’t even want to watch tv or play with the kids. I wanted to be alone. When […]
With endless meetings and partying this past few days, I get so tired. I think I need a time out before Christmas. So I just had my whole body massage and I feel so great. I also got a chance to watch a movie that hubby downloaded since last week and I still have so […]