When I feel down, I just look around me and appreciate the good things I have in life. There are moments when I wonder what is really my purpose but I realized that I should stop finding it out but I have to create my own purpose. Sometimes I don’t have the guts to do […]
So many things happened this year and the most devastating part is losing my daughter. When she was gone, I never thought that I can have a courage to celebrate Christmas but miraculously I can deal with it now. I am ready for it. I realized that God showers me more blessings and this is […]
“No one loses a child the way a mother loses one. We are the ones who first felt life, carried it and protected them, nourished them, sacrificed our bodies for them, held them first in our hearts, then first into our arms. We were not only connected through flesh, but on levels so deep, you […]
I am so tired of being sad. Lately, I am browsing a lot of my daughter’s pictures and I feel sad. I am not crying anymore but deep inside of me I am very sad. I am longing for her. I wish to have her back. But being sad is so tiring. I am tired […]
I think this quote is not applicable for me. I will definitely cry over and over again because I lost a daughter. I know that forever I will be longing to have her back in our lives but for now I will cry my heart out whenever needed. It made me feel good after […]
Today is one of those loneliest day of my life. Everyday I miss you, but today is different. I cried so hard because I wanted so hard to have you back again. I miss all your kisses and hugs. I wish to God that you are happy right now. I know you misses […]
Today is Ayumi’s 9th month in Heaven. Long 9 months without her in our life is very hard. There are lot of changes. We live differently now. We are not as easy as before. We see life in a different view now. I don’t know but I think we will never be the same ever […]
I can’t believe it that I am counting the months without my daughter instead of posting her development. It’s always heartbreaking to know that I can’t have her anymore. I miss her everyday and the love I have for her continues to grow. Last night, we went to Eastwood and saw that they have this […]