Ayumi, Grieving Mom

Mother’s Day

May 11, 2013

I decided that I don’t want to celebrate Mother’s day this year. I don’t feel like celebrating it. I know that some of you won’t understand it but I don’t really feel it. Of course I got some greetings from friends and families and I really appreciate it. Last year we celebrated it at the…

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New Gadget

May 8, 2013

The last time I bought new phone was 2 years ago. My first smart phone is iPhone 4 and there are new models already but I was never interested to have a new phone. Until I heard recently that the Samsung Galaxy S4 is available. I registered online to make sure that I can have…

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Great Weekends

May 7, 2013

During the weekends I spend my time with friends and family. On Saturday, I met friends at The Fort. It’s been a while since we met and I am so glad that finally we found time to be together again.     It’s so nice to be with friends again but at first I was…

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Graduation Day

May 3, 2013

Today is my brother graduation day. So for the last few days we are busy preparing for it. When I found out that it will start at 6am, I panicked because I am a night person and by that time I am deeply in my dreamland. So the night before the event, I tried to…

Ayumi, Grieving Mom

4th Month

May 3, 2013

Today is just like any other day. Full of pain but we still manage to smile and get through it. I don’t know how I survived 4 months without my daughter. Everyday is like a brandnew day. I don’t focus on the past anymore. I don’t focus much on the pain. If I have to…

Ayumi, Grieving Mom

Dream

May 2, 2013

  Last night I have this wonderful dream about Ayumi. We are at the hospital and I saw her dead body and I carry it. Then we are at the restaurant. She’s with us. She is back to her jolly self. She told me that she didn’t die. She is always with us. Then we…