Jan. 3, 2015
It’s the 3rd Year Angel Anniversary of Ayumi and it still feels like yesterday. I miss her everyday! There are days that I woke up and looking for her. That feeling when you know that you missed someone so much and don’t know how to deal with it… well I always had that feeling and when it strike, I just go out and pray so hard. I look around and just appreciate what I have and not deal much of what I don’t have.
I don’t feel good that day but I forced myself to get up and visit Ayumi’s place. We had our take out order of Jollibee and had our lunch at her place.
We also offer her favorite spaghetti.
It’s been 3 years and though the pain subside, I still have some unanswered questions but I just let it be by now. I am always wondering about our life if Ayumi is still with us. I am wondering how we have our conversation. I wonder how she will look like. I have this endless thoughts about her…
Maybe I will be like this until my last breath and be united with her again.
For now, I will just live my life, live the best as I can. I know that she is with us always, guiding and protecting us.