Category: Personal

As I mentioned in my previous post, I am now doing some upgrade in my living room. So here are the details:

I added that beach painting and metal butterflies.

We removed the mirror and transfer it to the right place according to Feng Shui guide.

I just mixed and matched everything and I like the effect. 🙂 Like this one here, the blues and whites are perfect combinations.

Here I also mixed the purples, blues and yellows. I just like the combinations.

Here is the place for kids toys and books. 

This is the new place of the mirror.

 

 

 

The red painting that placed above the TV is now placed near the treadmill. 

This is the look I love in the coming months and I will definitely changed it when Christmas comes.

This somehow make me feel good and motivated. It if makes me feel good then it is somehow a good sign! 🙂

July 22, 2017 (Saturday)

It’s a rainy day and I guess I need a little break…

But not really.

I woke up around 11am. That’s earlier than usual but because I slept around 3am after we visited a wake of our cousin in Laguna. I was so sleepy when we went to Laguna but I really can’t sleep in the car, specially if hubby is the one driving. I need to talk to him all the time para hindi din sya makatulog. Nong papunta pa lang kami  medyo inantok na sya kaya pagdating sa SLEX tumigil muna kami para makapagkape sya. Pagdating namin sa Laguna, pinatulog ko na sya sa sasakyan habang kausap ko mga relatives namin. Parang reunion na rin, kwentuhan kami ng kwentuhan. Umabot ng 3 hours ang kwentuhan. Hindi na rin kami nagtagal. Around 12 midnight umuwi na kami at don naman ako sobrang nadrain. Dumaan muna kaming McDo para magpagpag, I know most of you know about Pagpag.

So yon… pag uwi ko sa bahay, hindi ko na talaga napigilan ang antok ko at natulog na agad.

I woke up around 11am then had my breakfast and started working.

I have so many things to do that I need to work more than 12 hours. So most of the time I am infront of my computer, working.

Around 4pm, I take a break, I had my steaming bath.

It feels good after and I feel refresh. I put some epsom salt, VCO and body wash.

Then I take a nap around 7pm..

Then I have my dinner prepared by hubby.

That simplify my day. My life is somewhat boring this past few months. No travels since I need to finish some of our projects. I know that I can’t set aside this whole thing and I will just take a vacation as soon everything is okay.

But for now, magpakalunod muna ako sa work and I am enjoying it anyway. So okay lang talaga.

Minsan ang nakakaloka pa, marami ang hindi naniniwala that I work more than 12 hours. Ang akala siguro nila na kapag you own a business, eh hindi ka na magwowork. Kung tutuusin I am working all day and night kasi kahit nagpapahinga ako, gumagana pa rin ang utak ko. Palagi ko pa din iniisip ang mga tao ko at ang business. I need to secure my business para hindi naman maapektuhan ang mga tao ko.

So there you go…

Have a nice weekend everyone!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

It’s been a week now that I’m not okay. I am somewhat restless. I wanted to have a quick getaway because I think I am so stressed out already. I need time alone. I need to reassess my life.

But..

I can’t do it. I have so many things to do.

Since, I can’t go, I have to do something to divert my mind and emotions.

I finished my paintings and book.

I also do some online shopping. I visited my favorite website and just click the items I like and added them to cart and I know eventually, I will delete those items, because in reality, I really don’t need them. I was eyeing for make ups, dresses, tops and shoes, but then I realized that I just spent too much last month for clothes and I think I don’t need them. But when I check my closet, I don’t like what I have anymore, so there… I will keep those in my cart and I know one day, I will pay for it.

I am also checking a paint online shop. I also added some oil paint colors that I needed but I’m still contemplating if I really need those. ahhahah eto na naman..  but I need to have 100 paintings. Okay..  bakit 100? Kasi ganito yan..

One time I had a dream, I was talking to my father. I told him that I am so lonely and sad. So depressed that I wanted to end my life. He look at me in the eyes and told me to paint… just paint. Sabi ko, paano kung malungkot pa rin ako, paano kung hindi effective. Sabi nya, basta magpaint ka lang, padamihin mo, hanggang umabot ng 100. Then he left.

Parang alam ko na kung alin ang icheck out, I think yong sa paint store. ahhaha

Anyway, I got a news today about a relative who passed away. I really don’t know on how to react at first because we somehow closed at first then somehow lost it along the way. Despite of what happened, I know deep in my heart that I’ve forgiven her…

Every year, I save something for myself. A gift for myself.

So this year, I think of this little thing as a perfect gift.

I looked for a perfect design online and let my jeweler copy it. I am so glad that it was indeed perfectly made.

Because I am a queen of my empire.. so I think this one fits perfectly for me. ahahhaha

Excused my imperfect nails. ahahha

I’ve been working so hard and I know that I deserved this little thing. 🙂

 

 

It’s been a quite a while that I am excited for my birthday. For the past years, I was not this excited. I just let people around me do the preparation and sometimes I don’t even want to celebrate it. I was not in the mood for celebrating it in the past years because I feel so empty back then. I lost a child and I think my life was over too. I’ve been in different phases of grieving and it was not easy. Sometimes when it hit me, it feels like I don’t want to do things anymore and it usually hit me during my birth month. It was quite frustrating but I just let myself feel everything. Then, suddenly I realized that I think it’s about time to start picking myself again. So there.. I started going out and focusing on the businesses because while I was grieving, I don’t spend much time thinking for the business. I don’t have new ideas for the business and I just let the people around me, whom I trusted to run the business.

But then, I realized that I should move on and do things that are necessary before everything I worked on the past years will just go away.

So slowly I gained my pace back…

Yes, I am back and I am so excited!

I will be turning 38 this month and I hope it’s going to be an awesome year!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Someone has to take care of him. Their father died when he was so young.

The eldest of the family took care of him.

Took care of his education until college.

The eldest provided everything for him… from clothes, house, food and education.

He was treated so well.

All his needs and wants was then given.

He was showered with love.

But…

He poisoned the eldest.

Everyday for the past years he added a poisoned to the eldest food.

The eldest went to different doctors and hospital just to check up everything, because the eldest felt that their was something wrong with the body.

The doctors can’t find out.

The eldest endured the symptoms for years. Act normal though the eldest feel that there was really something wrong.

The eldest who took care for the whole family left alone when found out about the poison. The eldest can’t accept the fact that after what’s done, be betrayed just like that.

The eldest suffered in silence.

The wrath the eldest felt will never be change by time. The eldest can’t even find forgiveness until the last breath.

 

 

 

Today everything seems so good!

I got my much needed rest and at the same time feeling refresh.

I also feel that I will get what I am praying for soon. I feel that God will provide what I am needed for my business.  I am now claiming that everything sooooo good is about to happen.

Ang daming nangyayari sa buhay ko na minsan ko hindi ko na kaya. Siguro lalong lalo na nong time na nawalan ako ng anak, na hanggang ngayon ay mahirap pa rin intindihin but you know what, I decided to move on and just live each day, kasi kung hindi ako titigil kakatanong kung bakit nangyari yon, malamang hindi pa rin ako okay ngayon.

Sa buhay ko marami na rin ang nag take advantage. Marami na rin ang gusto akong pabagsakin. Marami ang hindi naniniwala sa akin at marami na hanggang ngayon ay gusto pa rin akong ibagsak. Sobrang daming ganong pangyayari pero never akong gumawa ng paraan para sirain din sila. I just do my thing and never wasted my time with those idiots. I never gave them the satisfaction to ruin my life, dahil kung hindi sila masaya sa buhay nila, hindi ko hahayaan na pati buhay ko ang maging kagaya ng buhay nila. Don ako may control, don ako may freedom kung alin lang ang hahayaan ko na makaapekto sa buhay ko at kung sino at alin lang ang gusto kong papasukin sa buhay ko.

I can easily block people away from my life. I think I master that already. Kapag alam ko na may hindi magandang maidulot sa buhay ko ay inaalis ko na sa system ko. Hindi ko kailangang hayaan na malason ako sa mga ganong klaseng tao. But don’t get me wrong… I know who and how to keep people and I made sure to keep them so close to me that I can protect them with all my might.

Now that I started my business, I meet different types of people, may iba na parang mga vampire na gustong sipsipin lahat ang meron ka at may iba naman na parang mga alimango na gusto kang hilahin pababa at masaya kapag bumagsak ka na. Sobrang dami… kaya kung minsan nakakatakot. Mas gustuhin ko pang mag isa na lang kung ganon din naman ang nasa paligid ko. Kaya I can’t let my guard down, but I don’t let those people control me and I do my best to protect of what I have and continue to focus on my goal to achieve my purpose in life.

It was a busy week,  I have some projects need to be done so I stayed at home to focus on my work. I also see to it to spend quality time with the kids. So in between work I need to be with them.

Gareth came into our room to make lambing. He wanted to do it without Xavier para mas masolo  nya ako. He wanted to check my spotify and play his favorite music.

 

Here Xavier wants to have picture with the popcorn that his dad made while we were watching TV. This is his current fashion right now, he loves wearing that winter hat. hahahah 

 

Lambingan time with Daddy.