Something New

I downloaded new apps in my iPad and that made me busy in the past few days. Not to mention that I have a new work. Well, my favorite Boss just bombarded me with new projects and I am excited to do it. I am so happy that I have something new to do because I am quite bored of the usual routine.

So I downloaded Papers by FiftyThree in my iPad and that is the reason why Gareth has limited access to my iPad. hhahah

Here’s my first attempt:

 

I know it is not cute LOL but I am not really good in arts because my favorite subject is Math but I am trying. During my school days, I really hate art but I don’t know but this time I am interested on learning about art. That is the reason why I started painting and speaking of painting, I spent much of the ink and canvass already and sometimes I am so lazy to paint or I really don’t know what to paint anymore. Naks.. I already a painter block moment. ahahahha

While thinking of new concept to paint, I am now trying to doodle and believe me, it is still hard even though I asked hubby to get me a nice pen. Yesterday, he got me a new pen, it is a nice pen but still my drawing is not nice. Siguro wala talaga yan sa pen kasi hindi pa nadevelop ang talent ko. Kahit na pangit ang drawing ko ok lang kasi maganda naman ang pen ko. ahahah

So here is my new work today:

 

See, improving? because I have a nice pen. ahahah

It is somewhat addicting because I can express myself but I have to stop it for a while because I have to concentrate on my work. I need to finish my project today so that my client can send the payment. I need that payment for my Forex investment. ahhaha

How’s your day? I hope you have the best one!

2014 Financial Goals

Here are my list for this year:

– Open 3 more spa branches
– Start building our 4 Door apartment
– Focus on Forex Trading (Target Earnings is $1k/month)
– Save! Save! Save!
– Debt Free
– Complete the payment of our 2nd house.
– Invest new condo at The Fort

I wish to achieve this goal this year. So, I think I have to set aside the negative vibes and just focus on our goal. I know that God will help us achieve our Goal.

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The Hardest Question

Since my daughter died, I never thought that answering a certain question can be so hard. When I go out and meet strangers and all of a sudden they asked me “How many children do you have?” I really don’t know how to answer it not because I don’t know the answer but I don’t know how to express myself.

But I am getting used to it and sometimes I have this quick reply. Before I got pregnant and someone pop the question I just say 2, specially if Gareth is not with us. If Gareth is with us I just say 1 and hoping that no follow up questions.

Now that I am pregnant, some asked, “pang ilan na yan? (pointing to my big tummy)” and I just say 2.

I never thought that it will be this hard. I just don’t feel good if I have to talk about the loss to a stranger. I also don’t want to change the mood of the other person because when I start talking about it, most of the time they got affected and I feel bad too and sometimes it will not stop me from crying. I don’t want to cry infront of the stranger.

Of course I love to talk about Ayumi in a right time and place and maybe to a right person. So if you are reader of my blog and it happens that you see me, don’t ask the hardest questions but just let me know that you are reader of my blog and through that, I know that you know that soft spot of me.

 

Silly, stupid, yes, it is still hard and I can't explain it.

Lazy Sunday

I think I am so lazy lately. Most of the time I woke up late. I don’t know but it seems that I am restless. So I need to spend more time sleeping and eating. hahahah

So today, I decided to just stay in the house. The weather is also gloomy that made me want to stay in bed the whole day. But I have work to catch up so here I am working while watching tv. I also love every moment of it because most of the time I love to feel every movements of the baby.

Later I have to catch up with my readings. I just love weekends… 🙂

 

Because He loves you even more than I ever could.

Mom on Duty

This past few days, I am busy for the kids. Oh well, I had my 3D ultrasound and we are very excited to see baby’s feature and of course the face. I am glad that everything is normal.

So here’s the 3D picture of our Rainbow Baby.

At first, the doctor find it hard to view his face because he is covering it with his hand. Then we tried to change position and ring a bell to let him move and viola we got it perfectly. I am so happy to see his face. Ang cute!

Since there are advisory about measles outbreak, I decided to let Gareth has his MMR vaccine. Yes, it is already late but I really make it sure to give it to him late because of his autism. So after he got his MMR shot, I am sleepless. I keep on checking on him if he has any side effects. I am glad that the whole night he is sleeping soundly and just got mad at me because I keep on checking on him. Well, napraning lang ako.

I also had my OB appointment earlier that day, and since I am a night person, it was really hard to wake up early. I am not even drinking too much coffee since I got pregnant and that made me feel more sleepy the whole appointment. I also don’t like staying in the hospital because it seems that I am absorbing the negative energy. I become weak everytime I am at the hospital. I really don’t know why. So after my appointment, instead of going somewhere with hubby and Gareth, I decided to go home early and rest. So the result, I sleep early and wake up late. It feels so good because I am now active and well rested.

Oh, actually not really well rested because I keep on peeing at night and of course checking on Gareth. The baby is really moving the whole time this time and I like it but sometimes when I am sleeping, I suddenly wake up due to his hard kicks. I also find it hard to find a comfortable sleeping positions.

My OB told me to control my diet. I really don’t know how to control it. I gained 4lbs and to my OB it is already too much. So she wanted me to eat meat in a match box like and half cup of rice. I really don’t know if I can do it because if I feel hungry my tummy is really making weird sounds and start feeling dizzy. So the only solution is to eat a heavy meal. I am not also allowed going to public places lately due to measles outbreak so every time I feel bored I just went to a mall with less shoppers and this are the social malls. When we went to “social malls” I feel poorer! I think I can’t buy anything because just getting inside the store will make me a thousands poorer! LOL

So when hubby wanted me to check a certain store and I know that I don’t have enough money to purchase anything in that store, I don’t want to get in. I just watch from a far and wishes so hard that I am a billionaire because I don’t want to get in any store without buying anything. So window shopping is just enough for me now.

But when we went to Rustan’s to check baby items, well, I never controlled myself anymore. I make sure to complete the baby essentials and so far I got almost everything. Well, we really plan to get all his essentials this month and purchase the bassinet, stroller and other big items next month. It is always exciting to buy all baby items. I am just controlling myself because some of the items are not really that useful, so I just focus on the basics.

We clear some parts of our walk in closet and placed baby items and everytime I see his clothes, it made me realize that this life is still worth living for.

 

 

 

 

Busy Bee

Busy as a bee again. I am trying to complete the baby essentials and I spent my whole day yesterday at the mall. I am glad that I almost got everything. I am lucky that yesterday, I am good in walking around. I also see to it to have enough rest in between shopping.

I can’t believe it that I am preparing all this things because same moment last year, I was so down. I can’t even take a look to babies. I can’t even dry my eyes due to sadness. Our God is really a God of surprises.

I am busy again with work. I received different inquiries almost every hour about our Tour Packages. I am also updating our rates. I also need to add new stocks for my Clothes business at Dampa sa Libis. I am contacting our supplier ones again. We need to do the inventory and restock. I am also constantly monitoring the Spa. I am happy that it is now doing well. We already have regular clients. I also need to restock spa essentials. Not to mention that I need to check the therapists skills. I need to see to it that we are offering best services to our clients.

Most of all, it is the time of the year to renew business permits. We need to complete it asap. Of course, we need to file our ITR earlier this time. I hate doing it in rush.

Despite this crazy things around me, my priority is to take a rest, I badly needed it because I am now on my 29th week. I don’t want to experience early labor so I am taking things easy. I just let my assistants do their job. I am glad that I have those amazing people around me.

Check out my baby bump 😀

First Year Angel Anniversary

At first, I really don’t know how to celebrate this event but I later realized that it is worth celebrating. It is always my pleasure to have a child like Ayumi. I am proud that I am her mom. I am lucky to know her even for just a short time. I am happy that with her I know the feeling of having a daughter. I know how to laugh my heart out because she’s  funny little girl. I am so proud to be her mom. I am sure that Heaven gains a beautiful angel through her and I know that she will bring so much happiness in Heaven. It is indeed a beautiful place to stay because my daughter is there. 🙂

We visited her place yesterday and stayed longer. We bring her favorite food and we just talked about her. I miss her so much but I am trying to let her go. I am trying to move forward. It is a year full of pain, emptiness and longing. It was difficult and we have so many first without her.

I believe that she is happy wherever she is now and I continue to believe that she will always guide and protect us always. She is truly our angel.

I also believe that it is about time to move on. I need to let go. I should not dwell much on the pain anymore. I should start picking up the pieces and continue to live a life that God designs for me.

I know that every now and then I will feel the pain and emptiness but I just have to deal with it one day at a time.

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New Year 2014

Happy New Year to all my Readers!

How’s your New Year?

Did you have any plans yet or any New Year Resolution?

I celebrated New Year with my family. I am delightful that I woke up that day with full of good vibes. I feel good and I think it is a good sign.

So hubby started cooking and we clean the whole house. It is always our tradition to keep the house clean and change all our bedsheets, curtains and blankets. We also give away our old clothes that we seldom use. Days before New Year I was so depressed but with God’s grace I made it.

We had our simple celebration and we are happy that we are all together.

I am excited for 2014 because for our new baby. I can’t wait to hold him and experience motherhood again.

I am also excited to expand our business and to focus more on Forex.

For this year, I will focus on good things only. I will not let negative vibes get into my life.

I can make it with God’s guidance.

I wish everyone Good Health and Long Life!

Happy New Year!