I miss my baby so much today. I wake up earlier than usual. I don’t know but I can’t go back to sleep. I want to hug her again. I really miss hugging and kissing her. How I wish she is still with us……
Letting Go
The Hardest Question
Since my daughter died, I never thought that answering a certain question can be so hard. When I go out and meet strangers and all of a sudden they asked me “How many children do you have?” I really don’t know how to answer it not because I don’t know the answer but I don’t…
First Year Angel Anniversary
At first, I really don’t know how to celebrate this event but I later realized that it is worth celebrating. It is always my pleasure to have a child like Ayumi. I am proud that I am her mom. I am lucky to know her even for just a short time. I am happy that…
Nightmare
I don’t know how to express what I feel but my body is trembling everytime I remember that moment when my daughter passed away. Few days from now will be her First Year Anniversary in Heaven. Everything seems replaying. Sometimes, I can’t focus because I remember how exactly it happened. I feel so helpless… I…
Emptiness
Christmas won’t be the same without You!
Dear Ayumi, Few days from now we will be celebrating Christmas without you. I just wanted you to know that we talk so much about you. Just this morning, when daddy and I went to kuya’s event, we are thinking about you. We wish that you are also with us. We wish that you are…
To My Christmas Angel
Our Christmas this year is way different without Ayumi. She’s our source of Joy and it hurts to know that we will be celebrating our first Christmas without her. When I started decorating this year, I really think of her. I know that she will shout “wow” everytime we light our Christmas Tree and I…
11 Month without Ayumi
Today is not just like any ordinary day. Today is the 11 month without my daughter. Everyday is battle between my mind and heart because there are times that I have questions why she’s gone too soon. As a mother, I know there are days that I am on my lowest point, specially if I…
Have a Thankful Heart
When I feel down, I just look around me and appreciate the good things I have in life. There are moments when I wonder what is really my purpose but I realized that I should stop finding it out but I have to create my own purpose. Sometimes I don’t have the guts to do…