Gareth now a days is so crazy in watching any videos from iPad and iPhone. He even browsed the videos of Ayumi. I thought he will just skip it as what he always does. But today is different. He watches every videos of Ayumi. When he is watching the video, I can see the sadness […]
Since my daughter died, I never thought that answering a certain question can be so hard. When I go out and meet strangers and all of a sudden they asked me “How many children do you have?” I really don’t know how to answer it not because I don’t know the answer but I don’t […]
At first, I really don’t know how to celebrate this event but I later realized that it is worth celebrating. It is always my pleasure to have a child like Ayumi. I am proud that I am her mom. I am lucky to know her even for just a short time. I am happy that […]
I don’t know how to express what I feel but my body is trembling everytime I remember that moment when my daughter passed away. Few days from now will be her First Year Anniversary in Heaven. Everything seems replaying. Sometimes, I can’t focus because I remember how exactly it happened. I feel so helpless… I […]
Dear Ayumi, Few days from now we will be celebrating Christmas without you. I just wanted you to know that we talk so much about you. Just this morning, when daddy and I went to kuya’s event, we are thinking about you. We wish that you are also with us. We wish that you are […]
Our Christmas this year is way different without Ayumi. She’s our source of Joy and it hurts to know that we will be celebrating our first Christmas without her. When I started decorating this year, I really think of her. I know that she will shout “wow” everytime we light our Christmas Tree and I […]
I realized so many things lately. Sometimes I have this questions that keeps on running on my mind but for now it is pointless, specially if it will just make me less as a person. I am in a constant battle of staying happy or drowning myself to sadness. But I think I have both. […]
Today is not just like any ordinary day. Today is the 11 month without my daughter. Everyday is battle between my mind and heart because there are times that I have questions why she’s gone too soon. As a mother, I know there are days that I am on my lowest point, specially if I […]