Bubbly Mom

When I lost Ayumi, I really don’t know how to start my life all over again. I don’t know how to deal with pain. I think expressing everything that I feel through this blog is a big help to cope the pain. Some of my friends thought that I already move on. Well, moving on…

This is somewhat a late post. Before we went to South Korea, we visit Ayumi first to greet her Valentines. She loves flowers and everytime his dad gives me flower she wanted to hold the flowers too. I’m sure she loves it so much and she is happy.

I have so many dreams about her lately. On our way to South Korea, at the plane I dream about her. She is looking at me as if I scolded her. Me: I got mad! You always have a choice to go back, you always have a choice not to go yet but still you…

When we were at Korea, we are very busy doing our tour and exploring the place. We didn’t visit theme parks because it will only hurt us. Everytime we saw a baby looks like Ayumi, we can’t help ourselves but smile and start remembering her then hold our tears. I really don’t know when the…

We went to Nami Island this morning and it was so perfect. It was snowing and believe me, I thought I can’t stand longer in the snow but I so love the weather.   Here’s hubby’s picture, he loves the snow too. I thought my heart feel numb here since it’s so cold but no,…

Last Feb. 14, we decided to spend our Valentines Day at Korea. It was an overdue trip, we decided to have this trip last January 12 but because of what happened we postponed it. It’s our 3rd day today here in Korea, there is no day that I am not thinking of Ayumi. Everytime, I…

Ayumi had fever for 2 days and on Dec. 31, 2012, we went to hospital. They found out that she had tonsilitis and we need to stay in the hospital because she is not eating. She need fluids to prevent dehydration. We spent our New Year at the hospital. On Jan. 1, 2013, 3am, she…

We visited her today with beautiful flowers and balloons that she love. I hope that wherever she is right now, she feel blessed and love.     I know that you are happy right now. We miss you so much Ayumi. I love you!

Dear Ayumi, Tomorrow is the 40th day without you! Most of the days, I still feel the pain. I miss you everyday and God knows how much I long for you. Everyday, I view your pictures and videos and it made me feel good and sad at the same time because I know that you’ve…

Today is a busy day, we had our business Team Building and so far we had fun. I can now start laughing again. It seems that I am back in my old self but then suddenly it hit me again out of nowhere that I terribly missing my little Pillow. I miss calling her and…