Day Off

I love weekends but now that I am busy learning about Forex, I am quite sad if weekends come. Yes, I am addicted to my work but I think I need day off sometimes to rest my mind.

So, to make my weekends worthwhile, I scheduled activities. I see to it to spend quality time with my Gareth and Hubby.

On Sunday, we went to Ayumi’s spot. The last time we visited her was last November 1. We brought flowers to her and pray for her soul. Then we attended mass at St. Padre Pio at Eastwood Libis then we watched Catching Fire at Eastwood Mall.

I had a great time because I got to chance to relax and just by going out I can think of better plans for both personal and business matters.

I also noticed that the sparks in my eyes are back. I am quite happy now. I know happiness is a choice and by that I want to stay happy. There is so much in life to be thankful for.

Just Chilling

Yesterday, I decided to go with Gareth to his school. He’s so happy that we are together. He keeps on smiling when we are already at the school. He seems so proud that I am with him.

After his class we went to the mall and I enjoyed walking while checking the stores but eventually I give up because it seems that my tummy is heavy already. So I stayed at the coffee shop while my boys had to buy some of the items for the spa.

So I have my “Me Time” at the coffee shop. I got a chance to watch my favorite TV Series “Giullianna and Bill”.

I think I have to this often because sometimes staying at home is stressful because all my works are done at home. Sometimes, I need to breath away from work.

 

 

Faith

motivational and inspirational quotes about life.

Sometimes along the way, I feel the pain again. I worry a lot but I always tell myself that I should let it go. I should not live my life based on the past. I should create a new happy memory. I may feel down but I think it is just normal for a mom who lost a child.

Last weekend, I had a chance to be with my relatives. I am so happy to be with them and to my surprise, they don’t ask me about our lost. Maybe they just don’t want me to be in an awkward situation but sometimes I wanted to let them know that it is okay to talk about it. I am open to talk about her always.

Right now, I am enjoying every moment of my pregnancy. I can feel the baby’s movement all the time. I feel good everytime I feel her moving. I will be having my CAS ultrasound next month. I hope the baby will show his/her gender. 🙂

Gareth’s 7th Birthday

We celebrated Gareth’s 7th Birthday at Boystown Manila Complex where the abandon and abused kids are staying. It melt my heart knowing that they will grow up not in their parents. It’s a sad reality that not all parents can provide comfort, love and security to their kids.

I am glad that I got a chance to meet the kids and in our simple we bring happiness.

Here are the pictures:

 

 

 

 

 

 

I wish Gareth a good health always and more more birthdays to come!

I also wish that all the kids will find comfort and they will feel love. I ask God to bless me more so that I can continue to extend help to those who needed me most.

 

 

 

Keeping the Spirits Alive

I watched the news everyday and it is really heartbreaking. I know the feeling of how it feels to lose a child and I really can’t imagine how they deal with it now. I wish I can do something better. I wish to God that in this situation they will still find strength to move on and believe that they are never forgotten.

To Anderson Cooper, thank you for being with us during this moment. You help us share what is needed to be share and to let the world know the real situation here in the Philippines. In every report you’ve made, I can deeply feel how you sympathize with us. Thank you very much for coming to our country.

Help the Yolanda Victims

As I am watching the News about Yolanda victims in Tacloban and in some other parts in Visayas. I really got affected to the babies who don’t have enough milk supply. I wanted to send them milk but I don’t have enough. If you can share a little bit maybe we can send more milk to the babies.

If you are willing to help you can send your donation through this link:



Thank you very much! 

Our Christmas Tree is Up

So many things happened this year and the most devastating part is losing my daughter. When she was gone, I never thought that I can have a courage to celebrate Christmas but miraculously I can deal with it now. I am ready for it. I realized that God showers me more blessings and this is the right time of the year to give back. The people around me are my strength to face this holiday. They are the reasons why I need to stand and appreciate Christmas. I will celebrate this holiday with full of hopes and love.

I fervently wish to everyone who are the victim of Typhoon Yolanda that they may not lose their faith to God. I hope they will just hang on.

 

“No one loses a child the way a mother loses one. We are the ones who first felt life, carried it and protected them, nourished them, sacrificed our bodies for them, held them first in our hearts, then first into our arms. We were not only connected through flesh, but on levels so deep, you really have nothing to compare it to metaphysically. It is a love so raw, and so elemental that is just present – just there from the beginning. We have a link to our children that cannot be replicated. No one understands a grieving mother except for another grieving mother. No one else can begin to understand that void that surrounds us, shadows us, haunts us. our children’s screams that we can no longer answer, their bodies we can no longer grab and embrace, their tears we can no longer dry, their hurts that we can no longer make better. They then become our own unanswered screams, our bodies that become un-embraceable, our tears that can never be dried and our hurts that never stop. There are constant reminders of what we live without, and must live without until we die- sometimes it feels like it’s life’s cruel way of taunting us. The grieving mother is never whole again, never fully present, because a piece of her heart and soul leave her with her child’s last breath.”

 

Silence

I am not really posting this past few days because the truth is I really don’t know what to post. As you all know, we are hit by a strongest typhoon in the history, “Yolanda”. Most of my friends are from Visayas. Some of them are still missing or we never heard of them yet. Some of my friends lost their homes and some of their family members. Everytime I watched news I am deeply affected and all I can do is hope and pray. I hope that they will recover soon and whatever happened will never lose their faith in God.

I keep on monitoring my friends through FB. The last post they have was when the strong typhoon landed in their areas then until now we never heard anything from them. Some are living in Tacloban, Leyte and Samar provinces which is deeply affected by Yolanda.

Whatever happened is really frustrating and sometimes we really can’t do anything about it because we are not in control of everything. We just let God do wonders. All we can do is really pray so hard for the guidance and protection.

Some of my friends from Cebu who are also affected need food, water and clothes but until now they didn’t receive any relief goods.

 

 

 

 

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How to Celebrate Christmas?

I really don’t know on how to celebrate Christmas this year. I talked to my husband about it and we are on the same page. We don’t want to use our old Christmas Tree this time, that we used 6 years already. But we just can’t skip Christmas. It’s hard but I know we can get through it.

This year I want a White Christmas Tree.

pink and white Christmas tree

 

White Christmas Tree DIY

 

my dream white Christmas tree! | Elegant Musings

 

Somewhat I am excited to start putting it all together. I know it’s worth celebrating Christmas this year because we have a new baby coming. Despite of what happened I feel Christ presence in our lives and in our home so I have to face this season with full of hope and love.