Shopping Time

I started shopping for Christmas. I need to replace our curtains and pillow cases. I also bought giveaways for our spa clients. It was really tiring but I have to do it but I am not forcing myself. I see to it to have a break every now and then.

The Christmas party of the kids are coming also and they have so much requests. My youngest sister who are staying with me needs to complete her list too so I have no choice but to check every children’s or teens area in the mall.

We went to the mall last weekend and it was really hard to roam around. There are lots of people and all I want to do is to stay in one corner in a coffee shop. I hate too much people around me, it made me feel dizzy. So many uncomfortable scenarios…

I am glad that hubby is helping me. If he knows that I am not in the mood of shopping, he just let me stay in one place. We decided to continue to shop during weekdays. 🙂 I really hope I can complete our Christmas lists soon.

 

Saturdate

I have a great day today. We watched the “Frozen” movie with Gareth. The whole time we are at the movie house he is playing his iPad silently. He is really addicted in reading the stories I downloaded for him. He even memorized it.

We also had our dinner and just go around The Podium to check for something new. It was a great day with my boys. 🙂 Gareth also picked a new guitar toy. It is really his addiction too and we already have so much guitars in our house and some are already broken. I don’t know but maybe someday he will become a guitarist. 🙂

I just noticed that I am easily get tired in walking because I feel heavier. I hope that I can start shopping for the baby clothes soon and my plan to start shopping will be next month.

How’s your day?

 

Money Tips

My favorite Investor is Warren Buffett. I love reading about him and I inspired a lot on how he manage his money.

December is a busy month and the time to spend more. Yes, it is always nice to give and receive gifts but we should be practical in spending our hard earned money. Right now, I am still not starting buying for Christmas gifts but I already listed things I wanted to give to my staffs and family members.

Aside from that I am now saving for the birth of our new baby. The expenses is not easy but with proper budgeting I know I can make it.

I also wanted to purchase new bag and watch but instead of buying 2, I have to choose one and save the rest of the money. Instead of spending too much this time, I also see to it to place some of our money at my Forex investment and so far I am enjoying it. I learn a lot from it since I started last September.

My goal is to earn more at Forex so that we can start building our Apartment business. 🙂

11 Month without Ayumi

Today is not just like any ordinary day. Today is the 11 month without my daughter. Everyday is battle between my mind and heart because there are times that I have questions why she’s gone too soon. As a mother, I know there are days that I am on my lowest point, specially if I miss her.

I am getting used to it. I am used to this pain that I carry everyday. I am used of missing her everyday. I am used for that special moment where I hardly wish so hard that she is still here with us. I am used to it and I will be like this forever.

Everytime I see kids on her age, I wonder how she will become. It seems that my future with her is taken away from me. I have no choice but to continue living and just wait for that special moment that we will be reunited again.

It’s 11 month already but it seems like yesterday. I miss her so much and everything about her seems so fresh. Everything will never be forgotten and I hope she will continue to watch over with us. I know she is happy right now in Heaven because Mama Mary and Jesus are taking care of her. I know that they can take care of my child more that I do.

The sad part is that Christmas is coming and we will try our best to celebrate it the way we used to be when Ayumi was still with us. I don’t want to disappoint her. I wanted her to see that we can make it through.

 

Grow your wings baby…

You are our little angel always.. We miss you so much!

 

Paul Walker

I am a fan of The Fast and The Furious Movies. Hubby is a car fanatic so I also got a chance to know about cars. I love it when hubby discuss about cars because I am also interested about it. That is also the reason why I am following the Paul Walker’s movie. In the Movie, he is my favorite. I love his angelic eyes and his aura.

When I checked my phone yesterday, I was so shocked about the news about the car crashed and the devastating part is that he died instantly. I am really affected.

Paul Walker - will you marry me?!

I really can’t believe it.

This is the reason why we should live our life the best way we could because we never really know when will be our time to go Home to our Creator.

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Fast and Furious Paul Walker

He touches many lives and everyone who love him was also shocked but I know God has a reason for all of this. RIP Paul Walker.

 

 

Have a Thankful Heart

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When I feel down, I just look around me and appreciate the good things I have in life. There are moments when I wonder what is really my purpose but I realized that I should stop finding it out but I have to create my own purpose. Sometimes I don’t have the guts to do anything or I don’t realized the good things in life because of the pain I encounter but I know I should stop dwelling on that part because it will just affect on how I am dealing my every day life.

Of course I am still grieving and I know that I will forever long for my daughter. I will forever miss her. I am not holding back my tears if I wanted to cry. I often talk to hubby about the pain. We talk most of the time about our loss. But after expressing ourselves we need to go back to our daily routine because we know that we need to function well.

As what I always say, the new baby is not a replacement but a glimpse of hope for us to stand still. Some friends wishes us to have a new baby girl after our daughter died but deep inside of me I am wishing a baby boy. I am glad that God grant us this wonderful gift. Having a baby boy will help us to cope up. We will not compare this baby to his sister because they are way different. I can purchase any toys or baby items without comparing what I got before for Ayumi.

I always believe that God has a better plan and I trust in His plan.

Hope We Meet Again

I just love this song “Hope We Meet Again” – by Pitbull

Specially the following lines:

We could be anywhere tonight
Could be right here underneath the lights
I see the colours in your eyes
Beautiful rainbows all around us
We got the whole world in our hands
This is the night we won’t forget
Whatever happens in the end
I just hope, I hope we meet again

 

 

It’s a Boy

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I am very excited when I had my ultrasound yesterday because I can’t wait to find out the gender of our rainbow baby.

The doctor find it hard to check the gender because the legs are close. I still need to change position and cough to let the baby open the legs. When the baby finally opened the legs, the doctor confirmed that IT’S A BOY!

I am excited that finally I know his gender so that I can start shopping. Specially now that I am getting heavier. I can’t wait to start picking his clothes and crib. I can’t wait to hold the baby in my arms as well. 🙂

23rd Week

Today I have my monthly check up with my Endo. I need to adjust my insulin shots because my blood sugar is rising and it is just normal because the baby is growing. That is common to those who have diabetes.

I also have my Congenital Anomaly Scan and I am happy that everything is normal. All the major organs are normal. The amniotic fluid is normal and the baby is very active all the time.

I have a hard time sleeping too and since we need to be at my Doctor’s appointment early in the morning, I am very sleepy the whole time I am in the clinic.

I am thankful that my boys patiently waiting for me. 🙂

 

Baby bump at 23rd week. 🙂

Are you the Introvert Type?

"How to Interact with an Introvert." Being a fellow introvert, this is completely true. Educate yourselves.

 

I have staffs that are introvert and well, I think my husband is also an introvert type. Though I am noisy and most of the time loves talking, I have this passion to those who are introvert because somehow I am introvert too. I can easily start a conversation with them without trying so hard.

Some of our friends and relatives are so shy to talk to my husband because he is silent type. He don’t usually go out with friends. He is contented to be with me. I feel lucky that he is like that but I also wish that he has more friends but I really can’t force him. He just love to stay at home, do his computer works and watch TV series he downloaded.

Now that I have a spa, I also have some therapists who are introvert type but I am glad that they are now trying to open up. It is just a matter of giving them time to cope up with the new environment.