Touching Poem

I read grieving books and when I read about this poem, it helps me understand why my Little Ayumi leave us so soon. Dearest Mommy   When you wonder the meaning of life and love Know that I am with you, Close your eyes and feel me kissing you in the gentle breeze across your…

My Little Ayumi

  I went to Angel shop yesterday because I always wanted to have angel. I am very particular on what I want. I wanted an angel that looks like her then I saw this cute angel, that reminds me on how my little Ayumi sleeps. 🙂

Feeling of a Brother

I love posting of my kids pictures whenever they are together but sadly I can’t post it anymore. Gareth loves to browse Ayumi’s pictures on my iPad. I know in my heart that he misses her sister so much. Gareth is a special child and eventhough he is like that I know that he is…

Staying at Home

I decided to stay at home today because the nanny needs to leave early so I am here taking care of my eldest son. He keeps on singing while watching TV. My nephew is also here so the house is noisy and I love it. I love listening to them while they are playing and…

Anger

Today is the day that I don’t want to move. I just want to stay in bed and wishes not to wake up anymore. The pain is killing me and it leads me to anger. I hate why I am still here and my daughter is not with me. I feel so empty. I miss…