April 13

Today is Ayumi’s 100th day in Heaven. We visited her place and pray the Holy Rosary. Me and hubby watched her videos and as usual it made us laugh. She is still our joy. We miss her so much and we are longing to hear her laughter again. We wanted to see her happy ones again. Remembering her today bring tears. I miss her so much.

Despite what happened, I also find it in my heart to be hopeful. We are hoping that someday this pain will be over and we will experience that same happiness again. I wanted to visit her place someday with the future babies. I hope and pray that my simple wishes will be granted.

If you are reading my blog please pray for me and for my Little Ayumi.

South Korea Tour Part 3

On our 3rd day we went to Nami Island. The travel time from Seoul is more than 1 hour. Good thing we left early so no traffic and less crowded.

At Nami Island, I experienced snow fall and I was very happy because I was praying so hard for it.

Here are some of the pictures:

This place is very famous because of the tv series “Winter Sonata”

 

We also visited Le Petite France. This place is famous for korean novela settings.

 

This was taken on our way to N Tower.

 

On our 4th day we stayed most of the time at the hotel and do some shopping.

I miss South Korea and upon posting this one the North Korea is declaring war to South Korea and I hope it will not happen. South Korea is a nice place and the people are so friendly.

I love the Winter Weather and so happy that I experienced it with hubby.

During our tour, I was still grieving but I managed to smile and make our trip memorable. The tour is a big help in managing my grieving period. I realized so many things and wishes that the cold weather will take away the pain I feel.

 

For inquiries about South Korea Tour Package please check Sasuman’s Travel and Tours.

April 3

Dear Pillow,
You are already on your 3rd month in Heaven. There never comes a day that I never think of you. You are always in my thoughts and in my prayers. I miss you so much! I am deeply in pain knowing that I can’t have you again. There are days that I badly needed you and you always show signs that you are just around. I know that there are moments that I don’t understand why you need to leave us so soon but I believe someday I will found out why. I am looking forward for that moment that we will be reunited again. I love you very much.

I miss you everyday!

Love,

Mommy

 

 

 


	


	





	

		
		
Wish List
	


	
	
	

		
I try to divert my mind to other things. I’ve been depressed this past few days so I have to think of things that can excite me and appreciate my life more. I know hubby will be happy to see this list and he will be as excited as me. 🙂


So I got this list:


Photo: Places To Go. I wish! :)


 


I need to save a lot and I am praying so hard to reach this goal.

	


	





	

		
		
April
	


	
	
	

		
Dear Ayumi,


Sorry if sometimes I don’t feel like moving. Sorry if I disappoint you. I know that I promised you that I will live my life to the fullest but there are days that I misses you so much that I just want to wait for us to be together. I don’t know, but sometimes I don’t want to stay here anymore. I want to be with you. I just miss you so much and I hope you will help me cope up with this pain.


I miss you so much and I hope you will be in my dreams. Please talk to mommy, I miss you so much.


 


Love,


 


Mommy

	


	





	

		
		
Happy Easter Sunday!
	


	
	
	

		
Yes, I was so down a while ago but I manage to stand up and prepare food that is assigned for me to do. Oh well, it’s a good thing because I am really obliged to move my ass.


Anyway, here’s the colorful Easter Eggs I created.




 


This is the first time I created something like this and I just checked pinterest for it and I am so glad that I made it right.




 


That is the tiramisu. The taste is more buttery so we need to redo it. I hope hubby can make it.


Anyway, I had fun creating it all and I decided to start baking soon. hmm what do you think? I don’t really consider myself as a good cook but maybe, I can be good if I practice more. Wish me luck!

	


	







	

		
		
Easter Sunday
	


	
	
	

		
Easter Sunday!


I know that  I should be celebrating today but I don’t feel like doing it. I don’t know how to start my day. We have plans already but I don’t feel like moving. I prepared the Tiramisu last night and I hope that it’s perfect and I hope that kids will love it. I will be preparing the eggs later to distribute to my staff. I want this day to be happy but it seems that I am not in the mood. I miss my baby so much.


Last year, we had a great Easter Sunday. We went to the mall and had our lunch and dinner. Ayumi was with me all the time. I wish she is with us today and I wonder how happy she will be. I wanted to hug and kiss her. I miss her so much.




Taken last Easter Sunday. I miss you so much baby!




 


The pain is back and I think today is one of those BLAH days.


I am not expecting to be back to normal again but I hope that Easter Sunday will bring me peace, happiness and hope.