My Life Through Pictures
One day I woke up and so amazed when Xavier was doing it.
He can now do “pretend play”. He aligned his stuff toys and told them to watch tv.
So I grab my phone and told him to pose with his friends.. then it goes like these…
He is s amazed that I play along with him. 🙂
He is happy that I took a picture of them while they watch tv and he even requested to watch Hi-5! 🙂
Today he is not feeling well, he has cough and so irritable. I hope he will feel better soon. 🙂
Oct. 31, 2015
The Spider Boys!
I always wanted to have them wear the Spider Man costume and finally I made it. Â I was so glad when I bought their costumes, specially when I got all their sizes.
When Xavier tried it for the first time, I really can’t believe how he grows so fast.  🙂
  
For the past 2 years since we lost Ayumi, I never celebrated Halloween because I really just can’t. Â I was not in the mood of doing it and of course I was recovering at that time.
But when I saw Xavier that he has interests in wearing a costume then I made up my mind. I realized that I should let him experienced in wearing costumes and enjoy it too like every kids.
So here I am, trying to live a new normal life and I believe that God will bless me and guide me more.
How’s your Halloween?
Most of the time I am working at home and in the middle of working I let my kids come to our room to play with us. That is the power of having time freedom.
So ayan, nangungulit si Xavier habang nagwowork kami.
Ang tawag na rin nya sa daddy nya ay Dear. ahhahaah gumagaya gaya na talaga.
We don’t have yaya anymore. Nagpaalam na mag day off pero hindi na bumalik. I was so mad!
So ayon, I need to adjust my working schedule kasi kailangan kong bantayan si Gareth at Xavier.
Eto ang mga kakulitan ni Xavier…
Akala nya phone and power bank and he pretended calling his Dad.
Eto todo bungisngis sa camera.
Eto galit na galit.. tantrums time.
Inaantok na kasi sya.
Xavier is now feeling better. Thank God!
I don’t know if he is just acting up because he asked me to hold my phone and He want me to take him pictures and then he acted like that. ahahahah Marunong nag emote ang baby ko.
Kapag may sakit isa sa kanila parang ang bigat bigat talaga. Lalo na kung maalala ko yong nangyari dati. Parang lahat ng sakit bumabalik. Ang trauma hindi pa rin nawawala. Minsan nagigising na lang ako at biglang natatakot for my kids. Hindi ko alam pero takot na takot ako. Minsan ang hirap intindihin ng nararamdaman ko. Kapag ganito na ang feeling ko, dyan talaga mas kailangan ko ng break. Mas kailangan kong mag isip isip. There’s so much things that I am taking care of and sometimes I don’t know what to do anymore but I need to pull myself and refocus on the things that are more important. I don’t want to dwell on things that I can’t control. I need to divert my attention to things that will make me a better one. That will make our life better.
I know someday I will be totally okay… someday…
Dear Xavier,
I know someday you will be able to read this. I hope you will feel our love and happiness. You brought so much hope to our family. The joys you  brought to us is really beyond words. We are so happy to have you. Everyday is worth waking up because we have you. I thank God everyday for blessing us a baby like you. Thank you for making me believe that there is always a rainbow after the rain.
Everything you do delights us. You have your own charm that capture our hearts.
I promise to take care of you and provide you the love and comfort you deserve. I love you so much Xavier!
Everyday with you is an adventure. I love everything that you do. I love watching you grow and even more excited for the future with you.
I promise to comfort you in the best way I can. I will work hard to provide you a life you deserve. I love you so much!
Love,
Mommy Janneth
It’s been a year but every single day I thanked God for having Xavier in our lives. He really made me believe that life is still beautiful after all the storms that we’ve been through.
The first time I held him was the day I realized that there might be a reason why some bad things happened. He let me believe that there is still hope.
Today, he brings so much laughter in the house and I really love it. There are days that I just stop and look at  him and just praise God for all the good things. I am so thankful for all the blessings.
March 14, 2015
Xavier’s First Birthday Celebration
Venue: Maia Alta Clubhouse
The theme is Shabby Chic in Mint Green and Gold Motif. That’s the arch at the entrance.
The interior. I just love the colors. 🙂
The souvenirs for kids.
Food
The dessert buffet
It was a successful birthday celebration of Xavier. Friends and relatives joined us and I am so glad that they made it.
I will be posting more about it but I still have to wait for the pictures from our official photographer so that I can show you more of the detailed part of the event.
March 10, 2015
We woke Xavier around 12 midnight para salubungin ang birthday nya. Nakaready na ang cake nya and we sang Happy Birthday. Nagtataka siguro sya kung bakit ganon ang ginawa namin.
Ayan takang taka talaga sya. Halata sa mukha nya.. 🙂
Ang sarap lang nyang tingnan kasi nasurprise talaga sya. Hindi siguro nya maintindihan ang mga ginawa namin sa kanya.
We also went to church. I thank God for giving me another chance to become a Mom for this precious one.
There is so much to be thankful and I am glad that I am giving a chance to experience what life is really all about.
I promised to myself that I will do everything for my kids.
I am quite emotional this past few days but I know that I have to focus on the good things that are happening to our lives right now.
My wishes to Xavier:
1. I wish that he will grow as a responsible man.
2. I wish that all his hearts desire will be granted.
3. I wish that he will put God first in everything.
4. I wish him happiness.
5. I wish that he will be strong enough to face this crazy world.
6. I wish him good health always.
7. I wish that he will enjoy his life to the fullest.
8. I wish that he will not let fear control his life.
9. I wish that he will admire the beauty of life.
10. I wish that he will love everyone around him.
That is my sincere wish for you Xavier, I know someday you will be able to read this. I just want you to know that the moment I know that I am carrying you in my womb, I know that you are going to change my life forever! I love you very much my son.
Xavier is now practicing to walk. When we went to  Eastwood, we got a chance to practice more.
This is also the place where we taught Ayumi how to walk.
Really… some things never change.
I just love to see him so determined to walk.
I know that sooner he will be running this place too. 🙂
