Rainbow Baby

It’s a Boy

.it's a boy

I am very excited when I had my ultrasound yesterday because I can’t wait to find out the gender of our rainbow baby.

The doctor find it hard to check the gender because the legs are close. I still need to change position and cough to let the baby open the legs. When the baby finally opened the legs, the doctor confirmed that IT’S A BOY!

I am excited that finally I know his gender so that I can start shopping. Specially now that I am getting heavier. I can’t wait to start picking his clothes and crib. I can’t wait to hold the baby in my arms as well. 🙂

23rd Week

Today I have my monthly check up with my Endo. I need to adjust my insulin shots because my blood sugar is rising and it is just normal because the baby is growing. That is common to those who have diabetes.

I also have my Congenital Anomaly Scan and I am happy that everything is normal. All the major organs are normal. The amniotic fluid is normal and the baby is very active all the time.

I have a hard time sleeping too and since we need to be at my Doctor’s appointment early in the morning, I am very sleepy the whole time I am in the clinic.

I am thankful that my boys patiently waiting for me. 🙂

Baby bump at 23rd week. 🙂

2nd Trimester Blues

I feel heavier now. My tummy is big and noticeable. I think I need to purchase more maternity clothes but I am so tired of going out. I am tired of going to the mall and shop. I don’t feel good lately. I am so emotional. Sometimes, I find myself browsing our old pics, specially the pictures of Ayumi, at first I am laughing because I remember how jolly my daughter but then I suddenly cry. This is really the crazy times. I don’t know but I can’t control my emotions lately.

I also need to rest and stay at home because I often feel dizzy when I am out. So I have no choice but to stay at home. I also like going around the village and driving the nearby coffee shops and supermarket in our area and it makes me feel good.

I hope that in the coming days, I will feel better so that I can do things that I want. I am not even visiting our spa today due to back pain. I just wanted to lie down and sleep.

This is crazy and I hope I will not be gaining more weight since my OB and Endo wanted me to control my food intake.

Sometimes I don’t feel good and remember the past, I just think of this baby and then I got my hope again. I feel good again knowing that there is someone inside of me that is waiting to be part of us. To feel my love. I think I should focus on this new baby instead of the past that just hurts me. I know that forever I will feel incomplete because I lost a daughter but it doesn’t mean that I can’t love again. I think I am so lucky because God give me a chance to become a mother again. I still remember when I celebrated my 34th birthday, my only wish that time is to become a mother again. Just 1 day after my birthday, I took a pregnancy test and I got a positive result. God answered my prayers that fast and that is a big favor from Him. I am so happy for this wonderful blessings and no matter how hard it will take I will cherish every moment of this pregnancy.

Love my kiddos

Baby Bump

Our rainbow baby now turns 17 weeks. I am so happy to announce that I can feel kicks most of the time. It is really true that if you are carrying on the 3rd time, you can feel the movement sooner. I love it and it made me realize that this is really real, hahaha. There are times that I can’t still believe that I am carrying a new baby.

No words can describe how happy we are when we found out that I am pregnant again. After the pain we’ve been through but I believe that this is so worth it. It seems that me and baby has a connections and I often see the baby in my dreams. Even before I got pregnant, I saw the baby in my dreams and keeps on insisting that he or she is just waiting to be with us. At first I was hesitant but later on I give in because I believe that this is my calling. To be the baby’s mom, to show my unconditional love and just to be with us until we grow old.

If you’ve been through what we’ve been through, there are moments that we lose our faith and just surrounded by fear but I am trying so hard to fight for it and by constantly praying and asking guidance from God and Mama Mary, I am stronger now and I know that there things happen for a reason. If Ayumi was not gone, maybe we are not planning to have this new baby, but deep inside my heart I am longing to have a new baby and I believe that there is someone waiting to be with us. This is really my Calling.

Showing my baby bump. Taken at Subic.

The future is still blur but I don’t care about it anymore. I don’t want to think of the future but all I wanted to do is to focus on the present. I will do everything to keep the baby healthy and safe. I let God and Mama Mary control everything. I believe that I am in good hands.

16 Weeks Pregnant

My rainbow baby is now on the 16 weeks. I feel better now. I don’t feel any morning sickness. Thank God, because for the last 3 months I don’t feel like moving and it’s hard for me to plan.

Sometimes, I can feel the baby’s movement and worried if I don’t feel anything. The baby is still too tiny to recognize the movements all the time. I am praying so hard to have a healthy baby. Please say a little prayer for us. 🙂

There are days that I can’t still believe that I will be holding a new baby soon. I am forever thankful to God and Mama Mary for this amazing miracle and blessings. My heart is really overflowing of joys and love.

This new baby is our new hope to live a better and brighter future. I am now excited everyday and all the pains seems gone away because I am expecting a new baby.

Monthly Checkup

Yesterday, I had my monthly checkup at Medical City. By the way, I changed OB this time and I feel good that I did because I learn a lot from my new OB. She is really good and I am more comfortable with her.

We heard the baby’s heartbeat for the first time through Doppler. It was an amazing experience. Though it’s my 3rd pregnancy, it still feels like the first time. Every pregnancy is really different. The experience is unique in each child. Hubby recorded when my OB is checking the heartbeat. So far my weight gain is normal and I will continue taking my vitamins and I am not allowed to be in crowded places.

So far, I feel good but most of the time I am sleepy. I really can’t control it. But sometimes, I have to do something especially if I have some business meetings and work to finish.

Today, I am just here resting at our home. I hope I will get enough rest for this weekend because next week is going to be a busy week for us.

I Am Not Alone

Lately, I can feel the baby’s movement. I am so happy and excited for this new baby. I don’t know but it seems that we already have our connection. Tomorrow is my monthly check up and I can’t wait to hear the heartbeat.

About my blood sugar, I am happy that it is now in a normal range. I am still taking insulin and so far I prefer it this way. I am used of handling the needles now. 🙂

Eight Weeks

Today is the 8th week of my pregnancy. It feels like the first time. I have my morning sickness for the rest of the day. My cravings are not that bad. I can manage to avoid sweets and too much carbohydrates since I have diabetes. So far my sugar is within the normal range and I am glad that I started taking insulin this early. I am more relax this time than I have in my previous pregnancy.

I continue praying to Mama Mary and Padre Pio to have a healthy pregnancy. There are moments that I can’t still believe that I am really carrying a new baby in my tummy and though I am still in pain due to what happened, I am trying so hard to control my emotions because I don’t want that this baby will be affected. I am just hoping that this baby will change the way I think and see life. Since, I lost my daughter, I have this negative view about life and I feel that I will be forever in that painful state but now that I am pregnant, I started to see life differently. I started believing that something better is about to happen and I believe that God will definitely show me the right path and make me feel better soon.

I am thankful for all the people who are helping me and praying for my family. I know that they are the reason why I got enough strength everyday to face the challenges of life.

Diabetic Pregnant

I have type 2 diabetes and the truth is I don’t know where I got it. I am not really into sweets but I got my gestational diabetes when I got pregnant with my eldest. Since then, my blood sugar is hard to control. Now that I am pregnant again, I am very careful and watch my blood sugar regularly. During my blood test, my blood sugar is out of control and I went to my Endo at Medical City and the only way to control my blood sugar is through insulin. Since on 5th week, I am already taking insulin. The truth is, my numbers is in a control stage. I can eat everything with moderation. My doctor told me that I can’t eat fruits for 2 weeks and so far follow it for the first week but later on when I have cravings, I also give in but in a small amount only.

I am using a Flexpen Insulin and so far its easy to use. Today, when I woke up, my blood sugar is 95mg/dl and this is the first time ever that I got that number. I feel so good. 🙂 I know that I have nothing to worry because God is in control of everything.

I know that I should not deprive myself with food I wanted to eat as long as it is good for the baby. I hope that my blood sugar will stay controlled for the rest of my pregnancy and I hope that the baby is healthy.

I am on my 7th week now, too early for the ultrasound. I can’t wait to feel the movement. I am sleepy most of the time and I have this cravings sometimes at night so I let my husband get it for me and I’m happy that it’s not a weird cravings.

7th Week

Major organs have all begun to form. The embryo has developed its own blood type, unique from the mother’s. Hair follicles and nipples form and knees and elbows are visible. Facial features are also observable. The eyes have a retina and lens. The major muscle system is developed and the embryo is able to move.

When I lost Ayumi, I know that I can have a new baby, not as a replacement for her because the truth is, no one can replace her. I wanted a new baby because we are longing to have a baby. Before Ayumi died, we are planning to have a new baby and I was joking to Ayumi days before she passed away that I have a baby in my tummy, at first she don’t like it, she got mad and cry but I explained to her that the baby is cute and will call her “Ate”, she stopped crying and kissed my tummy. Everytime I remember that scene, I know that I have her approval. 🙂

The night I found out that I am pregnant, I have this wonderful dream, I saw Ayumi dancing. She’s so happy and shouted “Mommy” in her very cheerful voice. Then I woke up and I know that she is really happy on what is going on to our life right now.

I am 7 weeks pregnant. When I found out, I really can’t believe it. I let the day pass first and watch my body change. I feel morning sickness at night and most of the time I am sleepy. Then I realized that it is real.

So I never wasted time and inform my friends about it. I got overwhelmed by the response. They are very happy. I really can’t believe that my friends are so happy with this new blessings. This pregnancy has a big impact to all my friends because they know how much I suffered when I lost my daughter. I become a different person.

I am excited for this new baby and I am taking extra effort to take care of my body this time because I am thinking of the safety of the baby.

Please say a prayer that this baby will be ours for the rest of our lives.

Thanks everyone!

God bless!