Everytime I feel sad, I wanted to stare those travel photos. In that way, I get more excited again and I have a reason to live and be cheerful again. I know someday I can visit those places. I know…
The Kisses
Today is one of those loneliest day of my life. Everyday I miss you, but today is different. I cried so hard because I wanted so hard to have you back again. I miss all your kisses and hugs. I wish to God that you are happy right now. I know you misses us so much too but I know someday we will be together again.
I miss you soooo much Ayumi!
Earthquake
When I woke up this morning and checked my phone, I was really shocked about the earthquake in Cebu and Bohol. The two places are so close to my heart and upon knowing the tragedy, I immediately close my eyes and pray for all my friends and hoping that everyone is safe. I checked my FB page and saw the damage. It’s really heart breaking because most of the places that are damage are churches that I visited.
I love visiting different churches and by seeing what happened it really breaks my heart.
So I started contacting my friends from Cebu and Bohol and I am glad that they are all okay. I also checked the Sisters of Mary and I am glad that they are safe. It’s a relief. I can finally go on my day knowing that they are okay. I know that Mama Mary and Jesus are protecting them. I believe that they are watching all my friends and love ones in Cebu and Bohol.
Here are some of the photos I got from my friends FB Account:
Carmen Bohol
Bohol Bridge
The famous Chocolate Hills
The Sto. Nino Church in Cebu
The earthquake has an intensity of 7.2.
Please pray for the Philippines.
God Bless everyone!
Someday…
Baby Bump
Our rainbow baby now turns 17 weeks. I am so happy to announce that I can feel kicks most of the time. It is really true that if you are carrying on the 3rd time, you can feel the movement sooner. I love it and it made me realize that this is really real, hahaha. There are times that I can’t still believe that I am carrying a new baby.
No words can describe how happy we are when we found out that I am pregnant again. After the pain we’ve been through but I believe that this is so worth it. It seems that me and baby has a connections and I often see the baby in my dreams. Even before I got pregnant, I saw the baby in my dreams and keeps on insisting that he or she is just waiting to be with us. At first I was hesitant but later on I give in because I believe that this is my calling. To be the baby’s mom, to show my unconditional love and just to be with us until we grow old.
If you’ve been through what we’ve been through, there are moments that we lose our faith and just surrounded by fear but I am trying so hard to fight for it and by constantly praying and asking guidance from God and Mama Mary, I am stronger now and I know that there things happen for a reason. If Ayumi was not gone, maybe we are not planning to have this new baby, but deep inside my heart I am longing to have a new baby and I believe that there is someone waiting to be with us. This is really my Calling.
Showing my baby bump. Taken at Subic.
The future is still blur but I don’t care about it anymore. I don’t want to think of the future but all I wanted to do is to focus on the present. I will do everything to keep the baby healthy and safe. I let God and Mama Mary control everything. I believe that I am in good hands.
Subic Getaway
On weekend, we decided to go to Subic because hubby wanted to watch an event about Cars. So even though there is a typhoon that time, it never stop us for traveling. Since, I also miss going to an out of town trip, so we packed our bags and go.
We decided to stay at the Camayan Beach Resort.
The place is perfect. It has beach that we can enjoy but sad to say, the storm came the next day and we don’t have a choice but to stay in our room where I read books, sleep and watch tv.
Hubby catch up with his anime while Gareth is playing the ipad. We just go out everytime we are hungry. I am praying so hard that the storm will pass because we wanted to go out and enjoy the beach.
The next day, the event was cancelled due to bad weather. 🙁
So we decided to visit the nearby restaurants, duty free and just explore the place. We had a great time.
We stayed 2 nights at the resort. On Sunday morning, the storm was over. We decided to go to the beach.
The waves were scary so we just decided to stay at least 1 hour. I just want to be with nature, to feel the sand on my feet and listen to the waves. It made me feel relax and rejuvenate. It seems like a brandnew me. Nature has an amazing effect on me and I wanted to do it often.
We checked out and went to Ocean Park.
As always, I am amazed how the dolphin to it. 🙂
I love the shows then we headed home.
It was a short vacation but so worth it. 🙂
16 Weeks Pregnant
My rainbow baby is now on the 16 weeks. I feel better now. I don’t feel any morning sickness. Thank God, because for the last 3 months I don’t feel like moving and it’s hard for me to plan.
Sometimes, I can feel the baby’s movement and worried if I don’t feel anything. The baby is still too tiny to recognize the movements all the time. I am praying so hard to have a healthy baby. Please say a little prayer for us. 🙂
There are days that I can’t still believe that I will be holding a new baby soon. I am forever thankful to God and Mama Mary for this amazing miracle and blessings. My heart is really overflowing of joys and love.
This new baby is our new hope to live a better and brighter future. I am now excited everyday and all the pains seems gone away because I am expecting a new baby.
Candy Crush Life Lessons
I am a candy crush addict but lately I am not playing it much because I have so many things to do. When I got this life lessons, it made me realize that through Candy Crush I learn a lot.
Night Owl
Eversince that I am a kid, I am a night owl. I have more energy at night and I can focus more on my studies at night. During my grade school days, I am always late on my morning class but still I was a honor student. At high school, I have no choice but to wake up early because I am staying in the dormitory where all of us sleeps and wakes up at the same time. It was the hardest time for me but I have no choice. During college days, I always have afternoon class until evening. Having a morning schedule is hard for me to focus since I always sleep late.
When I started working, it is really difficult for me to work during the day. I silently wish that I should have my own business so that I can work whatever time I wanted. Then there comes a time that I need to work during night for my clients in the US. It was the best time of my life. I am earning big at the same time I am just working at home and I can work at night.
Now that I have my own business, it is really a relief. I am working until 2am and wake up around 12 noon. I think I am more productive if I am working at night. I can inform my employees on what to do the next day. When they woke up I have all the instructions ready for them, so while I am sleeping they are already things I wanted them to do. When I woke up, I just checked their work and that’s it!
But being a Night Owl has downside too. Everytime I travel, I have the hard time sleeping specially if we have early morning tours. That is the hardest part and hubby is helping to sleep early. We made the room super dark and I am not allowed to take any caffeinated drinks. During our first day is the hardest then I get used to it. There are times that I find it hard to attend kids school activities because usually school activities are in the morning. I attended the event but believe me, I look so sleepy. There are moments that clients are also requesting for a morning meeting, but that is seldom done because I usually suggest an afternoon or evening meeting when I am at my best.
When an owl give birth, it is also so hard. But believe me, I still manage to be at my best for the sake of the baby. When the baby wakes up, I also wake up and if the baby is sleeping I also need to sleep but of course there are days that I need help. I need yaya and hubby during this time. But at night, I am ready to take care of the baby. I don’t let the yaya stay awake during the night. I am hands on at night and when the morning comes, the yaya is the one who will take care of the baby. Since I am a breastfeeding my kids, there is no problem that any time the baby can join me in our room.
So now that I am pregnant again, I am already trying to figure out on what to do, specially now that we don’t have a yaya anymore. I told hubby that we should have schedule in taking care of the baby. It could be fun and exciting for both of the owls. eheheh
Maybe I am really born this way, to be awake during the night and I love it because I have a feeling that this is where I am comfortable. Believe me… I also wish sometimes to see the sun rise… I hope one day I can watch it.
9th Month in Heaven
Today is Ayumi’s 9th month in Heaven. Long 9 months without her in our life is very hard. There are lot of changes. We live differently now. We are not as easy as before. We see life in a different view now. I don’t know but I think we will never be the same ever again.
The pain is still here but not as intense as the first months maybe because slowly some of my questions are answered. Ayumi is really helping me get through this painful moment of our life. I know that she guided us all the way. She is really our Angel. I am so lucky to have her as our Angel. Everyday, I don’t feel alone and lost anymore. I know that Ayumi is helping me find my purpose.
To my Ayumi, I know that you are in a better place now. I know that you are happy in Heaven. I know that someday we will be together again.
