New Normal

I really don’t know on how to start this post but I just need to put this one here… For the past weeks, I am not really okay, many would think that I should be happy but really, I am happy for what’s going on with my life right now and I really appreciate it […]

Worst

When I lost Ayumi, it was the worst pain ever! I still remember that time when I keep on saying to hubby “grabe ang sakit sakit naman nito.. parang hindi natatapos ang sakit,  sobrang sakit na parang hindi kayang ipaliwanag ng isip, na parang may nawala na parte ng puso ko.” Sobrang sakit na wala […]

Affected

As I am writing this one, I am in tears. I am following the story of Catie through Facebook and I am praying so hard for her recovery but when I woke up today, I found out that she is gone. I am really affected! I know the feeling of losing a child. I know how […]

14
Feb

Still…

I am still grieving.. I thought that pain will just go away.. but I realized that it never went away, it is just inside of me. I just keep it, hiding deep inside of me. There were days that when I woke up and every detailed of what happened keeps on flashing infront of me. […]

27
Jan

Something…

I happened to check my old files while cleaning up my things and I found these… My 2010 Planner.. When I opened it, I got these. Yes it’s still hurts. It hurt so much that I am just used to it. I am living with that pain now and I don’t know if it will […]

5
Jan

3rd Year Angel Anniversary

  Jan. 3, 2015 It’s the 3rd Year Angel Anniversary of Ayumi and it still feels like yesterday. I miss her everyday! There are days that I woke up and looking for her. That feeling when you know that you missed someone so much and don’t know how to deal with it… well I always […]

4 Years Ago

Okay, Facebook has this thing that will show you some memories and today I got this. This was taken when we first visited Hongkong Disneyland. It was fun and we had a great time. It was our first out of the country trip with Ayumi and Gareth. When hubby talked about it, we are both […]

3
Nov

Remembering Papa and Ayumi

Walang araw na hindi ko naiisip si Papa at si Ayumi. Everyday I wish that they are still with us. Sana kasama ko pa rin si Papa at nakasama syang naenjoy ang success ko ngayon. Sana andito pa rin sya para makita nya na marunong na akong magdrive at may sarili na akong bahay. Sana […]